MOVED

2006-10-06T17:07:00.000+08:00

I HAVE MOVED TO
http://www.laceysatincorset.blogspot.com

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2006-03-17T03:52:00.000+08:00

i am really going crazy i think tis is the worse week ever.. my heart is pacing fast... n wad trigger tt off... actually i dono.. kinda sick man!

One sweet day

2006-03-07T18:09:00.000+08:00

Yesterday
Had a reallie good dream on sun nite.. woke up feeling great.. while i was out with the two Js my younger sis called.. guess wad?
Babe drop her first tooth.. n i managed to keep it.. thank god she din swallow it down!.. n babe knows how to "shake hand" ler! haha... i'm just so in love with her.. she is e cutest thing on earth...
Today
One sweet day.. :)
period.

Am so looking forward to thurs.. n nx week n e nx nx week blah blah ... sch term ending soon.. yippie v soon i shall take one step closer to where i wanna be!

Ok

2006-03-06T01:28:00.000+08:00

i need to admit.. YES I AM JEALOUS! n its really killing me!!!!!!!!!!! arghhhhh
i am crazy .. hw am i gonna slp tonite????????????

ok i shall concentrate on the upcoming RETAIL THERAPY n stop thinking of these nonsense..
n stop being an ass.. a redundant ass...

freaking....

2006-03-06T00:54:00.000+08:00

feeling damn wad nw... ever felt tis way like u left ur precious hse den a couple of mths later some one move into the hse n tt some one is some one u don like.. tt is wad i am feeling nw minus e house thingy the circumstance is some wad alike.. guess is really time to leave e past alone n start afresh ... afterall i haf ald "left the hse" i am in no position to do or say or even feel anything.. y am i so sentimental.. even to stuff tt is nt worth it.. as in i deserve better.. y am i still dwelling on "tt hse" ? really hate myself some times.. guess "tt hse" really gave me a lot of good memories n changed alot of my life... i hate pple who like "second hand goods" especially is i used before de ... some more is some one i don like .. duh.. not forgeting tt some one buy the "goods" becos she noes i once hav it..ARGHH COPYCATSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS all over again.. pissed lah pissed..............
i swear tt i am gonna find a new "hse" tt she will be so envious till she wanna die !

Yesterday n today...

2006-02-24T19:35:00.000+08:00

really enjoyed myself ytd.. met up wif jy with my bf.. BUT half way thru dad called n drop me a damn huge bomb shell tt really disturbed me alot n enough to spoil my mood for the whole evening tho its simply stuff like slacking at starbucks dinner at NYDC n pool but e conversations we had we certaintly worth remembering.. anyway.. hooked on some new ideas n ambitions.. guess everything happens for a reason.. today is a sickening day cos to begin with i only sleep for an hr n i am really shag.. practically half slp n awake all the time tt is really terrible.. cant settle the appeal stuff by today cos planning to submit on mon.. grad proj synopsis due on 4th march.. my thoughts eating me away.. den numerous issues happened n kinda jus add on to the already tense atmosphere..n most importantly HOT DAY! grrrrrrrrr.... weird day.. argh really v tired feel like slping.. nwadaes like to slp alot.. haha cos i love to dream..definitely gonna turn in real early tml.. finally its week end!!! time to start on the synopsis!

yeah!!!

2006-02-21T04:38:00.000+08:00

Finally found the song i am dying for yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Great Day~!

2006-02-20T23:28:00.000+08:00

Finally!!!! convinced myself to shop n splurge as i have been really on a tight budget after babe came into my life.. while waiting for JJ i spend the one and a half hr shopping... bought five tops from Future State and a pair of turquoise shoe frm Xodus.. their plastic carrier is replaced by a bag.. as in a real bag made of cloth.. cool..! anyway thank god she came after that if not i would have to declare bankrupt ... so we walk ard n went to Cafe Cartel for tea/dinner.. n after which she left for wrk while i met up with dear.. went home quite early as my gastric is killing me... god knows why but its has been reoccuring frequently recently and its really killing me.. any one knows any remedy for that?? anyway has been tunning in dutifully to lush 99.5fm recently.. esp frm 9 - 12 haha.. hook on downtempo chill out urban nu jazz stuff nwadays!

Just the always emotional me..

2006-02-17T03:56:00.000+08:00

As i change my layout n stuff.. i realised that i've changed over time... is it good? or bad? i dont know.. perhaps both... i think i am becoming a lil scary as i dont even know who i am any more.. its so scary to change w/o realising n i am some one who needs to be in ctrl of myself.. cuz no one can ctrl me.. time seems to be accelerating.. i am so afraid suddenly.. i hate to be losing ctrl man.. i dream alot.. but i wonder do i really want the dream to turn into reality?
Would you not agree that fear actually intrigue us? well at least for me its e case... i guess w.o fear many things will lose its meaning..
why must one choose to escape and live in denial n pretence when he can face the issue.. fear.. fear of rejection, fear of failing, fear of looking into the other's eyes, fear of giving in, fear of losing something dear, fear of changes, fear of facing unpleasant emotions.. to sum it up its all because of fear..
i think i am weird.. or perhaps just extremely stubbon.. wadever thats forbidden, challenging wrong or sinful tends to push me even further..but after its solved or achieved, it no longer has any meaning.. think this is one aspect i really gotta change.. if nto i'll nv gonna be happy..

Happy!!!!

2006-02-16T19:36:00.000+08:00

omg i passed i passed... i was so worried but i passed all!!! omg omg omg thank god thank god... i've got 3B's n 1D... i am overjoyed!!! in sucha good mood nw... omg... i cant believe it... 2 more to go before i grad.. exam n grad proj... yeah yeah!! anyway went to coffee club jus nw n tried the peach garden tea.. OMG!!!!!! one of e nicest things on earth.. the fragrance is really sweet!... haha gonna try it again the nx time i go there.. :)

Valentine's day 2oo6

2006-02-14T23:58:00.000+08:00

A year just zoom past like this and this is the second valentine with dear ler.. though it might not be dramatic or wadsoever but its undeniably sweet.. we kick the day off by spending ages at hmv listening to some tiesto's armin's & paul van dyke's as well as checking out some downtempo music album...i practically needed to be drag out of the place.. den we had a scumptious valentine dinner at jacks place.. dear's lobster is so darn good! n the steak i had is cook exactly the way i like.. not too raw nor cooked.. thinking of the scallop from the appetizer is enought to make me drool.. :P saw jasmine (lingy) n we took a double glance before confirming its each other.. wad a small world~! after which me n dear head off to one of our fav chillout place.. wine bar @ zouk.. one for one !! yeah "tan dio" wahaha so after a few rounds of drinks n gobbing a few stirer from them.. we decide to call it a day n head home.. simple n sweet yeap.. next occasion to look forward to.. some wedding in msia n dear's bdae..which is like 5 more weeks to go.. guess by that time its time for my exams cant wait to grad man!! results shud be coming soon... PLEASE DON FAIL ME AGAIN! anyway this is my new layout.. took me ages man! anyway as my memory is getting worse i better blog down our annivesary before i forget.. it was on the 7th.. exactly a week ago.. had dinner at an italian restaurant at raffles city we had fun making fun of things here n dere.. especially my cheesecake which tasted like some "kueh neng kou" i was simply pissed haha.. however the spinach n crab meat soup is superb.. n the main dish is ... er lets not even mention that haha.. after which we took a long walk to esplanade n sit on the rocks for practicaly an hr doing nth but enjoying the breeze and chat n spying on other couples doing indecent stuff.. hilarious!!! haha .. we headed back to introbar n had one drink n as i suddenly rem i got class in the morning the nx dae thus we head home pretty early.. so thats al i can rem of recent.. haha..

Lookout for the ?

2006-02-13T02:29:00.000+08:00

Under Construction.. road block ahead :)

as below..

2006-02-04T01:26:00.000+08:00

Dilemma

feeling so torn apart rite nw... i think i have split personality! confusion leads to the inability to differentiate the best path for me...

ahead of me shows the many different path.. n deep inside of me i crave to take the darkest one.. i'd rather lead a memorable life full of ups and down then to have a safe yet boring life..

i miss the forbidden.. i longed to break free.. but i cant deny the fear that has settled within me.. 10 years down the road, i dont wanna look back and regret.. for i noe either paths requires sacrifices that i may not be able to pay.. i am like a raging storm that's confined in a box.. dying to break free.. i know i can get wad i want in the future but my heart cant bear to let go of the present.. please set me free from all the painful inhibitions

Its time!

2006-01-21T22:30:00.000+08:00

its time to start the whole thing all over again.. afterall i'd get wad i've oways wanted.. time to be stronger...

after my last paper (hurray!) todae.. head down to serene's shop n play wif a few dogs.spend 70+ on babe's stuff...i realie don dare to check my acc balance.. after which we went down to IMM n shop... n again i bought lotsa stuff for babe.. toys combs cushions etc.. guess i'm crazy... time to start spending on myself ! after cny i mean haha..

pretty emotional week i'd sae.. weird tots zooming past me.. i noe its soon.. but hw soon?

i love babe

2006-01-19T22:58:00.000+08:00

todae after my so so stressful exam went to serene's petshop wif dear n buy tis cute cute dog bowl for babe... hehe altho abit exp for a toopid dog bowl but i realie like it alot.. den bought the ear drops as dear gave me de expire liao ... also got her a squeaky toy as all her toys jus miraculously disappear haha.. no longer splurging on myself instead splurge everything on babe.. sat going to serene dere again to buy heartgard.. dono shud i buy revolution as well... and most probably getting the yogi bowl for babe soon haha.. thinking of getting a carrier like those nice nice handbag so tt when go out can bring her along..and her bed n alot alot of things!.. i think tt if i ever haf a child sure damn spoilt.. cant imagine my life w/o babe nw..

on the other hand.. everything is jus going downhill other den me having babe.. so glad she is here with me... thats all

i am so freaking stressss !!! hate exams!!!

2006-01-18T23:48:00.000+08:00

no one noes the pain

pui pui

2006-01-13T15:21:00.000+08:00

pearl realie deserve the name nw.. ytd went to dear hse n saw her... omg i am so ooo oo oo o ooo shock!... i cant believe that she is ah pearl... den i tell dear its time to start to ctrl her diet ler haha... anyway ah pearl is so glad to see me tt she cant stop whining.. so glad... but she is so heavy tt i cant carry her man! sigh... ytd went to 3 petshops n bought quite a num of things for babe... among all is a peanut flavour bone.. cool man... she loves it lots.. haha... gonna bathe for her todae!

yeah~!!

2006-01-11T14:43:00.000+08:00

ytd went tampines with dear.. its been years since i last when dere... but as e petshop we r looking for is at simei thus we pop over to simei .... after which we went back to tampines. was trying to restrain myself e whole while as i need to buy things for babe nt me... however when i saw Lanvin E'clat D'arpege... haha i don give a damn any more... bought the 100ml bot cheaper den else where... save ard 30 bucks yeah!! then when we r going home we pass by a vcd shop n guess wad!! we saw my date with a vampire 1 2 n 3... in e end dear bought 1 and 2 for me as i don realie like 3.... yeah yeah yeah so happy.. its wad i have been thinking of ever since gon knows where... todae gonna spend the whole dae mugging... tml going to dear hse dere e petshop to buy stuff for babe... alrite gonna feed her nw!

Fuck it

2006-01-04T00:04:00.000+08:00

Knnbpcb like i aint stress enuff.. fuck it realie... fuck it fuck it fuck it knnn i feel like swearing the whole wrld down ARGH... for those in my msn u shud noe wad's pissing the hell outta me

BROKE>>>>>

2006-01-03T02:50:00.000+08:00

yeah yeah i noe i am forever complaining i am broke but tis time i am serious! haha if u haf read my previous entry u wud haf noe abt my crazy sp3ree at isetan pte sale.. n nw guess wad i did so wrg nw.. maybe nt wrg but wrg as in nt the rite time...

Guess wad???

i bought a
new
dog

yeah tt is wad i did.. so my 800 bucks flew off...
yeah e money for my new hp..
n probably e left overs r enuff for me to lay my hands on tt irresistable set of brushes..
the pte sale in may..
tt guess bag
the night cream i am dying to get..
La mer eye creme
Lanvin E'clat D'arpege Perfume (Awwwwwwwww)
update my curls........
n the list goes on n on .....
sobbbbbbbbb...
n so on n forth..
awwwwww
somebody gimme a kick on my ass pls cos i am such a !@$#$^$%
i cant believe i did tis when i am in a financial cris!!!!
gawddddddddddddddd...

BUT

i love her..
Babe is her name... gonna post her pics when dear bring over the transfer cable..

Perfect huh.. lol yeah i noe she aint pearl but... she is realei adorable n all.. n best of all my family got a dog again... haha... i hate myself man for splurgiong b4 i got babe...
as promised i went to collect my reserved glitter eyeliner... Larry is so bz.. (tt is a gd thing as he cant rec me smthg gd so i din splurge alot haha)
but............ still i cant resist tt gold shimmer pink lipstick...
yucks i hate myself..

may babe be good.. haha
n hopefully a slacker like me can pass my exams n most imptly..
my sub paper.. :/

Updates!! finally ...

2006-01-02T12:50:00.000+08:00

hMmM haven been updating so long as i was so bz doing my stuff... so i guess i shall start off wif xmas.. i noe i noe i am so laggy... so xmas eve my family n bf n my sis fren gather at my hse n we had a xmas dinner... tho its jus a pretty simple affair but its kinda fun.... e gifts i received r gifts tt i realie like... so e nx dae me n dear woke up like so early for dono wad reason haha... we left my hse ard noon n went to town... i cant realie rem wad i did... but i do rem tt i did get some stuff... body shop was having sale den n i grab their cranberry range so tt mine at home is finally completed... so the next big thing tt happened which i rem was thur.. isetan pte sale at scotts.. omg e pple there r nv endless... i spend like 400 on all the items as e prices are as low as 50% off... altho cosmetics don haf such discount but there is tis beauty vouchers tt u can redeem $5 for every $50 u spend on cosmetics.. so i have $20 to reddem off my nx purchases as long as they r nt cosmetics again... speaking of cosmetics.. i finally found Larry.. he's at scotts... after moving frm tangs for liek a yr? tho i found him a couple of mths back but everytime i go n find him its his off or leave or he ald left... so i was like super happy to see him n he realie recommended me e stuff tt suits me... so i was left exhausted (mentally n physically) n broke after tt dae haha... fri is a sucky dae so lets nt tok abt it... sat.. return pearl to dear... SIGH i cried like shit........................... my heart still aching sigh... i am comtemplating if i shud get a dog myself... so tt i will stop relying on pearl... sundae... me n dear went to marina sq for some buffet dinner n we walk ard n i bought tis realie cute mints tt has a mirror inside.. den larry called to sae my glitter eyeliner has arrive so i plan to go down todae to get them... ok tt's abt all.. i guess my summary power is better n better.. well wad to do i hav overshot for like so long.. haha.. study week tis week gonna stay at home n be a mugger.. after todae... i doubt i can pass!!!!!!!!!!! so i better start nw... sigh..

Pearl n the new xmas tree!

2005-12-16T01:11:00.000+08:00

for the past few daes pearl has been living wif me n my family n everyone is so attached to her... n even myself to another level. commitment n responsibility towards her is heavy but despite having to bring her down to do her business for at least twice a day(n the need to dispose her shit if not our guards will kill us), having to feed her by my hand n begging her to eat, putting up all e kicks n snore when she slp wif me at nite.... its worth it... no one can bring me e kinda joy like she can when embracing me n jumping ard me like a mad dog after a long day outside.. when licking every inch of my face n scruffing her way up my shoulders, when she follows me whenever i go.. the howling when i leave e hse..when i noe she misses me when i aint ard.. when she brush her head against my hand or wants to sit on my lap.. her excitement when i was abt to bring her out.. when she uses her paws to rub against her head....her hugs n kisses awwwwwwww EVERYTHING abt her is driving me nuts n tho i hafta wake up an hr n a half jus to settle her stuff but its worth it... it saddens me to face e fact tt she is returning soon... i cant bear tt thought n i noe.. none of my family cud.. she bond us together i don wan her to go... sigh but she aint my dog so wad to do...she makes my sis a happier braver n warmer person... my younger sis cheerful n giving her a better hols.. my father young again n seeing hw he plays wif pearl n love her... taking her for walks becos he wants to... my mum to enjoy the lil details of pearl n smile n care for her in her own ways ... therefore i'm comtemplating if i shud get my own dog but i noe its gonna be diff...
xxx
anyway afterall tis yrs we finally bought a xmas tree.. n when i sae we i mean everyone contributed...hee... tho the decos r more exp den the 180cm tree but i aint feeling any pinch over it as its a dream... i love xmas....

xxx

now i noe y giving is better than receiving (tho tt makes me broke)

xxx

u realie shocked me n it kinda hurts...
i miss the old you..
i hate tis side of u
i realie do...
its jus one of the thing tt i cant stand.....
if oni u noe..........................

xxx

please god... u noe hw much i dreaded tt... n u noe hw all i want is to be happy..
is tt realie too much??

Saturday nite

2005-12-06T18:44:00.000+08:00

Went to chinablack on sat wif vivian n her bf n her bf's fren n kaya (her bdae) it was supposed to be fun as i have nt met her for so long BUT... as i haven recover frm my sickness (fever flu n soar throat!!) i was feeling so light headed out of a sudden n its been yrs since i last felt lyt... my body was breaking out in cold sweat n my lips turn white i cant stand or sit can only squat... pathetic huh.. sigh thus i went back to dear hse n after drinking a mug of coffee i'm fine n our conclusion is my body lack of sugar.. sigh i guess i scare dem quite badly n i haven even redeem my drinks... kinda waste $ huh haha but nvm la at least we met up n we r thinking of going to momo tis coming sat hopefully i'd haf fully recover by den... :P

At Chinablack

overwhelmed..

2005-11-29T03:53:00.000+08:00

i am in e midst of mass packing my room now... decided to blog b4 i continue as i am so overwhelmed by my emotions nw... was rummaging thru e bag of letters n cards frm as early as when i was in p3 till nw...finally.. i understd alot of things.. hw i was so super insecure n weird n how i became who i am now n y am i e way i am including my attitude n character n e way i handle my emotions...not forgetting my fears my weird thinkings of certain issues.. tho i don rem wad i haf written to e sender but as i read e letters its as tho e sleeping part of my memory was jolted awake.. being some one who choose to hide e memories tt i hate or am afraid to face, my memory is pretty bad concerning awful or awkward scenes... or simply stuff tt i hate to even think abt..therefore reading those letters is e same as forcing myself to face e past.. e phase which i hated.. nw i noe y i treasured the once 4-peas-in-a-pod so much in e past becos they gave me e comfort recognition n love tt i haf ever wanted.. n i noe when i am wif dem dey wun hurt me in fact protect me frm anything n everything n support me in all aspect....den i think of E. n i think of K. when i read e letters frm K. i feel like dying... frm both laughters amusement n awkwardness... n i realie regret throwing away alot of meaningful things jus becos i din think tt they will become such a big part of my memory in e past.. some parts of me hasnt change.. n i think i must find a way to get rid of them.. because dey will only bring me harm... sigh.. e past is both intriguing yet haunting... i realie want to recall all tt had happened yet a part of me is holding back as i am so scare of facing tt part of me... i dono if u understd wad i mean but i think sis u shud roughly noe..

Human.. we r weak.. we r often tempted.. even more when we noe wad we desire is forbidden..suddenly i tot of original sin... hais... y ren so fan jian.. y do we long for something when we ald noe e dire consequences.. its been so long n i've paid for it n i haf been warned by alot of incidents but y do i still think of e sinful indulgence which i should stay away...

haha

2005-11-27T15:38:00.000+08:00

some pple r left speechless thus leaving some comments to save the very last few traces of its pride. . . tt's good news!

new week ahead... with so many plannings on my mind..
suddenly a bombshell drop onto me forcing me to alter my plans!
perhaps its for my own good..
dear is going for reservice pretty soon... tis whole of 2005 nv did i not meet him up at least 3x a week..time for me to be independant.. but thx god.. he'll be on time for christmas...haha
not everything in life will go e way we want but i guess... every obstacle we pass is to make us a better person.. after all tis yrs e lessons r being hurled at me in diff forms but i guess tis particular lesson is one tt i'd nv learn..

To The Pathetic Bitch

2005-11-26T13:02:00.000+08:00

PART 2

Hey Bitch..
C'mon ..TRY ME :)
i'm waiting!!!!
Hahahahahahahahaha
yeah perhaps my fren r hinting at me but they din mention e wrd "shut up" as like wad u described in ur previous entry.. so (Don-try-to-distort-the-truthNo.1)
oh n don get sooo sensitive n always triggers ur so creative imagination tt often ya.. i din mention anything bout ur personal life.. :) so don try to STUFF e wrds i din even mention in my mouth..Since when in my blog did i even mention anything abt ur "Affairs of the heart in personal life" (Don-try-to-distort-the-truth No.2) i'm targeting at our conflict not ur personal life.. get tis clear.. don mention things tt i din sae jus to win pple's sympathy ya.. as for me reading ur entry... well if nt for my good hearted fren who is nice enuff to tell me abt it i wun even bother abt popping by ur boring website jus to read tt distorted entry.. maybe tt y u haf to write tt down in ur blog so as to induce more spice in ur life huh hahaha... n if ur english is realie tt limited to keep using wad i've written to describe me perhaps a dictionary.. no.. i think attending more english classes will help..
n who's the one who started e ball rolling... u r e one who bitched abt me 1st n now u haf e audacity to sae i'm "shallow" when u r e one? (Don-try-to-distort-the-truth No.3) go n do some soul searching instead of pointing ur fingers at others... cant be bothered wif any childish petty angry cowardly bitch anymore. if u haf nth to retort back den don try to distort the truth again... bye!

P.S u din stand up for ur fren (Don-try-to-distort-the-truth No.4) rem u were sitting dere like a coward n can only vent ur anger by producing poisonous malicious entries.. hahahahahaha ..n ur eng sux..if u want me to use a dictionary to read ur entry perhaps u hafta try much harder or like wad i suggest go n take up eng lessons :) n if ur maths is good can u managed to count hw many times haf u distorted the truth in ur entry... well lemme help u jus in case u r as bad in maths as u r in english.. its 4 times.. =)

Latest LOVE

2005-11-25T01:58:00.000+08:00

Guess wads tt??
Its my epilator!!
haha lame rite.. but i simply love it no more mess no more headaches!
wad cud ever be better??
anyway i am back frm msia...
n christmas shopping has started
tis e season to share ur love wif ur love ones!!
so wad r u waiting for??

AND HERE IS TO ALL REGULAR CUSTOMERS OF CK TANGS!
PLsssssssssssssssssssssss i mean realie.. do me tis favour if u can!
i have a $70 tangs voucher(valid for 2yrs!!) tt u can redeem at any levels as long as its in the premises of tangs n inclusive of tangs studio... e reason y i have tis voucher is due to a mishap during a shopping trip..lets jus sae its a mis-use of my cash n impulsive buyings... derefore i refund the goods i bought ($155) n i managed to clear the $30 n $55 voucher but e remaining $70 is realie bothersome... so if u r a reg shopper over dere wud u pls consider buying the voucher frm me (well i kinda bought it too rite? lol)
thx alot!!! (u can leave a tag or email me at s-h-e-r-l-y-n@hotmail.com)

updates,,,,

2005-11-19T14:34:00.000+08:00

haven update 4 so long cos wan my previous entry to be seen by her...haha i noe i v bo liao...thursday went to Carnivore for dinner wif dear at chijmes.. e food is fairly alrite 7/10 tho nt alot of varieties however e service is top notch! sat went to town.. bought the new guess perfume... yeah yeah so happy sia... i like e fragrance alot!! den tues went to ps wif dear again... walk ard n bought the peach n almond lotion body spray n shower gel... i simply love anything asscociated wif almond n peach... after which went to coffee bean at wheelock.. my caramel apple has been DISCONTINUED! shit man shitttttt was so pissed... grrr... wed went to visit my pri sch tr... e security guard look at me n liren majiam we r terrorist duh! e noodles at e canteen nt as nice as my pri sch daes haha... my its cheap la.. n my tr cant recognise me until we tell her my name... after tt went to liren hse to hang out... till ard 9 as it was raining... i realie like hanging out wif her cos i don hafta be on guard or feel uneasy cos she is e best fren of my life..
thurs.. celebrated mee li bdae at paradiz kbox... it was fun... can tell she is v happy.. caris n me gave her a top frm zara.. e whole nite me caris jelinda n tiffany was picking n choosing the tibbits frm e tiny bowl as we don like nuts..haha..
fri.. which is ytd.. went to urban pooch in e evening.. for pearl... its a cafe tt allows u to dine wif ur dogs n u can play wif their dogs dere... it wasnt as nice as wad me n dear tot however its a new experience for me... playing wif e dogs n all... n dere is dis realie huuuuuuggggeeeee dog dere but its v solemn haha... den e smallest dog dere is v adorable... if only its an outdoor area i believe it'll be better... todae.. dono going where most prob going out again... haha

lets tok abt a bitch who is a COWARD ahahaha

2005-11-08T20:54:00.000+08:00

stumbled across a BITCH's blog... lifted her older entries...wooohooooo here we go...

TO: The Pathetic Bitch Who Is a Coward Inside But Trying So Hard To Act Strong n Tough in Her Blog . . . . . HAAAA

since u have sooooooooooo many negative comments bout me.. hw abt telling me rite in my face... don hafta gif lame excuses like.. giving pple face..dere fore u decided nt to "TELL ME OFF"... HAAAA... Hilarious.. i'd realie love to c hw u "tell me off" i mean who wouldnt wanna see a useless jittery chickenhearted "bitch" telling pple off in a cowardice manner (trying to act fierce but failling miserably) ? trust me it wud be realie amusing!!! hahaha .. Believe me even if we r alone u wun dare to even retort back..
So, u don like it when i was "bitching" bout u when u r beside huh... i din ask u to like it wad derefore u need nt feel oblige to like it :) ... n i noe u aint deaf of cos as i am nt as spastic as u.. cant u even see the obvious fact tt i deliberately wan u to hear wad i was saying? u r jus a useless timid coward who dare nt even squeak when i was "bitching" bout u rite beside u...n i don call tt bitching cos i doing it when u r ard (beside me tt is) and i aint afraid tt u will hear... in fact to noe tt u actuallie heard wad i sae gives me a thrill cos i felt so elated tt retards like u guys finally heard some truth bout urselves..
I guess pretending to be realie brave n acting like some spoilt-brat-princess in ur blog is the only time in ur life when u can appear as some one with backbones n some one who has her own mind.. Anyway i wasnt targeting at u but at ur dear fren...BUT ..since u like wad i am saying so much n since u love to take it as i am toking bout u... well go ahead... to me commenting abt air heads shud be heard by air heads n since u fufill the criteria, congrats! u r nw officially allowed to take acknowledgement in wad i had said tt dae..
In fact either u realie haf hearing prob (as u claimed tt is wad i tot) or u deliberately twisted the facts.. wad u wrote ain wad i said... either way.. u r equally pathetic..
AND lastly... unlike urs... my tongue only lashes at pple who deserves it... n it certainly does no harm to nice peeps.. so u need nt wry bout others.. however i must realie congrat u for having a chance to experience tt cos u r one of e few pple in my life who had e honoure n ability to make it so eager to snap at u.
Awww it upsets me tt brats like u actualie exists... trust me my heart realie goes out to you.. well its nv too late u noe.. u can actuallie try to be a better person in order to haf better karma to make up for being such a bitch in ur entire life.. cheers :)

P.S: my frens din ask me to shut up.. thanks for being concern but dey realie din :)

pissed!

2005-11-05T15:57:00.000+08:00

i jus realised..
some one change her blog's pic n it wrote Vanity Fair..
if u tot of it on ur own i'm glad...
but if u lift it outta my blog's theme....
i think i haf lotsa to sae..
for some one who preaches bout originaity..
too bad.. it seems like YOU don haf it

friday..

2005-11-05T15:34:00.000+08:00

when i woke up receive a call frm zhiming saying they r going for movies n ask me along... so i met him tong li weiming danny n william at PS to catch "Doom" its was alrite but reminded me of resident evil... b4 e movie me tong li n weiming went to pastamania to grab a bite dey ordered pasta n i ordered a choc mousse it was quite nice... after e movie tong li was luffing at me cos i was jerking all e way when dere r scary scenes.. well i cant help it i had my ears stuffed wif my finger practically 3/4 of e show haha... after e movie we went to tt small outdoor thingy beside orchard plaza for supper... it was nice .... took a few pics...damn lo if i nv lost my hp tt time i'll still haf a cam fone! :( sigh sigh.. den we went to play billard actualie is dey play i watch la cos i realie sux at tt... the whole time was chatting wif them when dey nt playing den after which we actualie wanted to go ktv de but.. it was ald 2+ den not muchplace plus nt worth it so we decided to leave it to todae after dinner at marina bay...hopefully tong li will be able to make it if his airline nv activate him!
for those who r wondering who dey r.. hmmm tong li weiming n zhiming mainly... r the 3 whom i was closer wif 3 n 4 yrs ago... dey r my ex sec sch seniors + my ex bf's ex good fren (s) they haf touch my life deeply.. tho we haven met up for ages but i'm so glad tt i din feel any distance... tong li used to be my counsellor sort of la... i used to be v childish u noe.. oways thinking bout sucide n stuff n he was always v patient wif me when i called him up like a hysterical char bor.. n he realie cares...when i hate studying at tt pt of time he always advise me to cling on nt liek some ass jus leave me alone n cry to my death.. he is my best buy fren ever... :) weiming is a tad too quite n preserve but there is no doubt tt he is realie a wonderful fren... he is kind generous gentle n definitely a hao hao xian shen.. haha... sometimes he is too nice tt pple take adv of him nor... he gives v good advices when i need dem.. n he is v wise n is a peace maker.. zhiming leh a v cute guy who is v jovial n active in sports... he nv fails to crack me up wif his so right but corny jokes... he is also a v nice guy in fact they r all so nice! hahaa... he is def a gentleman in making n he is v nice to his frens... its my honoure to noe e 3 of dem n having dem as my good frens is like one of e happiest thing tt has ever happen to me..
well nw is 3:50 .. 30 more min later tong li will be able to cfm his trip wif us later if he wasnt activated... i pray tt he wun.. cos going marina bay wif his is e best he is e only one who willl peel prawns wif me to eat.. hahahha... okie will update n def post pics in my nx entry! :P

updates

2005-11-02T16:51:00.000+08:00

so damn lazy to blog!!! haha...alot of thing to update.. some i forget ler also haha...start frm last week ba on thurs after sch went to town wif jo n jason... but splited up wif jason den me n jo go buy nail polish... frm thurs till ytd i think i spend 100++ on nail polish ler!!!!!! jo is v gd at choosing the colors she noes exactly wad i wan ... so fun to hangout wif her!..after tt went to paragon to meet clarance n his fren cos a fren of his frm abroad came to spre den he ask me join them... went to eat at maxwell den back to cine kbox ...it was fun...sat was at hm pcking the stuff for the e bizzare on sun... wahhhhhhh frm 3pm to 4+ in the morning wif sis n her frens.. dey r pretty frenly n humourous... so time pass v quickly...everyone is damn shag!! sleep at 6 lyt n wake up at ard 8 wAh so tired lo but was excited abt the bizzare... it was quite hot n the crowd is pretty limited...but it was a whole new experience for me n i totally enjoy it.. n i am so glad to sae tt i only lost my cool once! hahaha... well tt ass auntie deserve it... wanna buy my escada bag at 5$ ask her to go n eat SHIT la... damn those ah sohs realie hate dem lo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! anyway dear did came dw n i appreciate tt but i din get much time to realie pei him cos e stall is pretty bz... so poor thing... jus sit dere at a corner n watch ... n sis back is in a pretty bad shape at e end of e dae...tt sure hurts lyk hell! i guess everyone cant wait to slp at e end of the bizzare haha..to sum it up i earn abt 130+ only sian was hopping to earn 500 lo.. but nvm la..hopefully dere will be another bizzare soon... den after tt went to dear hse n slp realie early as i din sleep much tt few daes was damn tired lo...mon went to fareast wif dear eat bbf.. haha as we reach dere prety late no place to shop ler... den tues went to bugis n again buy lotsa nail polish haha..i am such a crazy person when it comes to buying things.. bth..

everything

2005-10-24T02:47:00.000+08:00

sadly... the truth is out... but i am still deciving myself.. refusing to face e reality.. things will nv be e same again.. be it nw or e future... its ald too late.. the changes have became irreversible... we noe tt our limit is only dere n it ain gonna stretch.. time to grw up.. n welcome myself to e reality....all e dreams had ended... all e sweetness is over... only bitterness n pain is left...n its killing me... its unbearable... i miss the old....
i don need anyone to sae anything to comfort me becos ultimately i am e one who is going thru hell so no one will ever noe wad pain i am going thru if u truly care jus pretend tt u din read tis entry..

if only i cud turn back time..

wohooo...

2005-10-23T07:12:00.000+08:00

damn pissed wif his fucking auntie... use my stuff... w/o my permission... n she does it openly 4 daes in a row.. who wud nt be pissed tell me!! wad audacity she has... duhhh... fucking hate her..spoil my so call hols... n her ill mannered daughter is jus as bad... banging on our door jus so tt she can play wif pearl n whenever we came home she practically suffocate pearl to preven her frm coming to us.. my hands r itching to kill the two of dem.. argh!!!!!!!!!!anyway.. me n dear try to go out as much as possible to avoid seeing her....went to marina sq early tis week but its boring..after which headed to suntect for dinner at crystal jade n sadly my fav dish is nt available anymore! awwww...den after walking ard we headed to ben n jerry's.. MY FAV!!! e services dere is realie gd n e ice cream is realie AWESOME... its gonna be my nx fav hang out place hwever i find e outlet too small...!!!wed went to bugis wif dear.. din do much oso jus wanna get away frm e hse..but we bought our fav fondant, cheese stick n eclair..yeah~ met up wif jia jin on thurs ..tok abt our lives n we realised tt we r pretty much facing e same stuff... sigh... anyway... fri met clarence den after starbucks den after we walk ard abit at town we no where to go so we went to find chong at yishun.... he treat us to bubble tea n i tried to li siao him...he said tt he's actualie itching to "hoot" me if he din recognise me in time.. cos i cheekily said tt i wanna order strawberry milk tea wif peppermint almond no pearls apple flavour wif blue coral powder n he was so bz at tt time hahahaha i was bursting out wif laughter... den clarence said tt he nv change at all... n both of us agreed tt he looks realie young for his age.. after tt went to zouk... reopening tt is... queue for an hr!! omg i was so tired n pissed while waiting n some fat bitch step on my already injured toe... was damn FUCKING piss n i think if it was me a few yrs back i wud haf f her upside dw.... -.-"" zouk din change much n e music is realie rotten tt dae.. i still luv stingray lots! haha... anyway sch gonna start soon sian!!!

:(

2005-10-14T01:48:00.000+08:00

i am sick of blogging bout sad things... but tis is wad i am going thru nw... n he don understd... i dono hw... i don lyk to bother anyone... but i feel so helpless... i sound lyk some pathetic frk i noe... but maybe i am realie damn pathetic nw... when i am alone... i no longer feel ur existance in my heart.. i jus feel realie empty... is tis realie wad we will end up like? i dono .. will u ever regret if u were to lose me becos of tis... i realie wonder... if tis r.s cant work out.. hw do u expect to to std up again... if e one u realie love n trust let u dw... where will u get the strength to start again? i don wan e dae to come when i realised everything has ended... u said u tried to salvage... i realie don c it... u realie dono wad i wan...u don lyk me to sae tt u haf change but haven u ? everydae i slp n wake wif tears... do u care? haf u ever try to put urself in my shoes.. u think tt every thing is jus becos of my sensitivity... but why is dere smk when dere is no fire to begin wif... instead of jus using tt as an excuse y don u try to analyse tis whole situation in another perspective.. nw i realised... sometimes love jus ain enuff...
will somebody jus come n kill me ?

br0ken heart

2005-10-13T16:46:00.000+08:00

have been crying so much tis few daes tt my eyes don luk lyk eyes any more.... don ask me y don ask me wad happen... don console me don act lyk u noe don...
i felt so alone... tho i am surrounded... tho u r still ard but deep dw inside i feel like an empty shell. i am so afraid tt while u set ur mind on our future... we might nt even get pass the present let alone in future... i feel so inseccure.. so weak.. so lost... no one will noe hw i feel rite nw...all my life i haf nv put so much hope n trust n faith in a r/s n nw i felt so dispair...
i reallei wanna thx clarence... for being dere for me tis few daes... if nt for u i dono wad wud haf become of me ler.. u realie made me feel better..
e sadest thing abt a couple is when both of u still love each other but u noe bcos of sm reasons things ain gonna wrk out n some parts of ur another half is ald gone n e one u love so dearly may hav changed to another person who, altho look exactly e same outside, but is nv e same again inside... n u can only sit dere n witness e death of love slowly diminish till nth is left at all...
n tt's us..

anyway... i regret spending e 140 at estee lauder cos nw i am broke! but i mus sae e free gift dey gift all e skin care products r realie good... after using e minatures i sure will go buy all e 5 bot again but one bot ard 80 + or more i think gonna save up ler!! my final conclusion after all this yrs is... i love estee lauder! <3 <3 <3

hangoverrr

2005-10-12T16:41:00.000+08:00

..ytd ..
i've nv been so drunk in my life n its crazy..
ended up throwing up n puking all e way .. yucks...
e hangover is killing me...

sometimes

2005-10-10T03:39:00.000+08:00

smtimes.. i think i am realie naive.. all issit jus a case of denial... ?
i dono.. i am scare... e weeds might haf been removed but the roots r still dere
maybe one dae.. e weeds will sprout out again...
i am realie naive thinking tt everything will be like e past but i noe smthings tho might look like a piece.. might actualie contains so many scar inside.. i noe dere is no perfection in e wrld... neither do i dare to ask for tt... but all i want is PEACE.. n some ass jus refuse to lemme...
y must tt asshole time n time again disrupt our peace.. he realie sux... i hope he kenna car bang TONIGHT! don come n disturb my life any more.. tho he wun c tis entry cos we aint cls but hw i itch to sms him asking him to get lost n outta our lives... he shud be a woman nt a guy so naggy n irritating... he wanna be a fucking asshole no one is stopping him but y must he drag pple into hell wif him... i simply detest pple lyt.. ownself landed in shit still wanna drag pple into it so as to acc him.... using the wrd .. "fren" is tis hw u realie trt ur fren by pulling dem into hell as well? i thot fren shud warn each another? perhaps its jus selfish reasons.. but my boi is SO BLINDED! y must i be e one to warn him time n time again when i noe he wun c e pic i c in my mind?
one more thing.... if tt ass is so free go n get some life.. stop bothering us lah... n so KPO for wad... if there is one thing abt me i hate pple to be kpo... my own family wun even be kpo abt my affairs who give outsiders e rite? his auntie is one v gd example... nt gonna start on tt if nt wud be endless...
tt ass .... y must he oways include me in e conversation n picture? wad i am doing is none of his concern lo.. y must he oways ask my bf abt my stuff n y mus my bf oways ans him abt my stuff... y cant he leave us alone tt leech! i hope n pray n pray he will c tis entry n AUTO abit but i noe.. unless is realie fated he wun.. n the last thing i wan is a pryer like him on my blog ...

ytd..

2005-10-07T15:25:00.000+08:00

went to kbox wif him reese n elliot.. its fun we majiam go dere haf picnic.. haha... its gd to go out n cool dw.. but things hav improve n i am glad..
todae... we haf been together for 8 mths.. the inauspicious mth... tt call for a celebration!

2005-10-06T15:53:00.000+08:00

GOING CRAZYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!

W.S.S.L

2005-10-06T15:04:00.000+08:00

So sad
so disappointed
so depressed
so hurt
so vexed
so lost
so cynical
so angry
so faithless
so helpless
...
n so much more

no one on earth is reallie worthy of ur trust n love
smtimes being good at concealing pain doesnt mean it aint hurt at all

early morning...

2005-10-05T13:45:00.000+08:00

woke up to c a sms tt piss e hell outta me... to hell wif tt bastard n bitch hope u guys rot in hell soon k .. YEAH go away... as far as u can... don haf to make it sound so crude when u r e crude ass urself.. fucking hell... n who e hell is e asshole to judge ... wanna play judgement? wait for ur doom day where u will DIE till v pretty it all depends on hw piss we r to do tt mean thing but if we did it u guys pushed us to it...

i'm such a lazy ger!

2005-10-04T14:29:00.000+08:00

haha my bf digi cam is ald full but i still cant drag myself to upload e pics cos i am so lazy! hmmmm one dae i must!!! anyway i JUST receive my result b fo com skill d for econs haha heng ar pass ar i don ask for much ! anwyay next week test ler same expectation as long as pass can ler la...
life is v smooth sailing for me nw...
as far as i noe financial wise i don haf to worry till i finish sch cos of tt thingy...
tt is one HUGE prob solve...
anyway me n dear plan properly so we divide e money into a monthly allowance thing so tt i don haf to fret till i finish sch... n e amt is jus nice.. hehe
R/s wif my bf n family is great...
Sch is fun...
n e prob tt has been bugging me for like 5 yrs is starting to get in ctrl... oh mine i am so glad....
but some hw
smthing is lacking n i dono wad...
i feel bored eh..
nth to buy nth new to do... kinda sux..
spore sooooo small!!
tis kinda prob is call.... too free liao nth to think of n create my own prob... hahaha
anyway.... tis week is study week but i decided to slack till fri..
cmon la my sch no hols eh only study week can slack.. tho normal daes i oso slack lah haha
ok la go n find some stuff to do ler !
btw i am such a sucker for Beard papa!!
n nw i am craving for e paper pot thingy!!!

:(

2005-10-03T13:58:00.000+08:00

I MISS HOME!!!!
But guess wad i'm heading hm soon...
n i VOW to myself i am going to live in my hse for at least 5 daes...
sigh
felt so distant some hw..
n guilty
of wad?
perhaps of nt going hoime when its my home.....
i miss home realie...
boy am i glad to be going home soon
i realise.. at e end of e dae.. when eveyrthing collapse n everyone forsake u
ur family is e only one left standing for u...
i rem tt dae..
when i felt so dispair...
subconsciously...
i found myself calling out for dad...
i realise
hw all my life..
he is e one
who protects me..
frm all the shit in the wrld
even if i'm e one who started the shit..
he will still stand by me..
oh god
i miss my family..
:(

some pple

2005-10-02T04:25:00.000+08:00

Some pple will DIE if dey dun flaunt for a dae...
i felt so disgusted nw yucks....
anyway.. wad r frens who backstab u called?
i dono man tell me abt it! tt is if u noe
cos i don n i think it stinks...
some mask r sooo deciving... duhhh
I FEEL NAUSEOUS NW!
Enuff of tt *****
Am so bz nwadaes... sigh.. over tt ass thingy.. :( i noe i'm neglecting my online time! or rather i haven been online for ages!! anyway have been cooking quite alot as cooking takes up alot of my time n i simply enjoy it!
ytd went to M.B for dinner wif dear... so fun~ after tt went to bugis n i bought a custom made perfume thingy tt i love so much... wanted to make choc fondant jus nw but when i went to shop for e ingredient i had a sudden change of mind n bought the ingredients for japanese paper pot instead... aha~ tml can eat tt! dere goes my fondant! i'm gonna make tt one fine dae! anyway i am facing a HUGE prob - short term memory..
its seems to be getting worse! argh!!
anyway managed to put up e clips of tiesto at Friendster.. whOohOo!!
hopefully my bf com can recover soon its so inconvenient to run abt using coms tt wrk!
n one last thing... i REALLY cant std tt kid! GRRRR....

Silence speaks more den a thousand wrds..
But to insensitive brats.. dey'll use tt to climb over ur head...

Updates!!

2005-09-20T20:47:00.000+08:00

omg so long nv blog ler... hmmm actualie nth much n many things... fri pei dear c doc den he gt 2 dae mc...cos he so sick .. poor him den we go meet some one n we made some v life changing decisions... till nw i still find it so hard to believe sia but i mus sae i'm reallie excited ... sat nth much but after we settle some stuff..me n dear went to town n walk abit but i sooo tired tt i totally no mood lor...actualie wan buy so many thing but so tired tt i cant walk.. den we went to eat n i fell asleep at mos burger table for 35min haha den we went to walk walk further n to borders.. den went to lido to catch nidnight.. actualie v tired de but as tis is e 1st time he ask me go c movies...i so happy cos we don lyk movies de weird hor.. haha anyway my sleeping clock is reversed to normal.. yeah.. sundae dear cousin wedding den like tt... after tt go c my parents wif him.. hehehehe....den ytd bought e aldo bag i haf been eyeing on for 2 weeks.. 100 bucks lesser in my acc le!! sob sob .... my nvm la since my bag spoil ler n i haven buy smthing for myself for a week ler so time to buy smthing lor haha... den nw i am so sick cos my bf pass the illness to me! hahaha... tml gonna do e proj... den sat gt test.. stress...

tired...

2005-09-13T22:40:00.000+08:00

i am tired.. tired of sch... e drive is gone... i jus wanna proceed on instead of being in tis phase of my life.. life is so boring.... i've reach a stage in my life where nth seems interesting to me.. i guess its like tt when u have all tt u haf ever wanted... seriously if u ask me wad i am lacking nw i cant think of anything.. nw i am begining to understand tt money is nth .. so wad if i have money my life is still soooo . .. . i dono wad i wan becos i haf all i need or want ler... even going shopping seems like a chore.. oh minee.. wads happening to me.. i no longer feels e excitement when i buy anything.. its more like any hw buying things nwadaes... doh....... y am i torturing myself by doing things i hate? life shud be pursuing ur dreams.. but nw i am stuck in tt stupid pit.. e only time i am happy is when i am wif him cos we don haf to do anything or go anywhere but still happy .. we r jus so.. indispensable.

tml... going to c doc wif him as he is nt feeling well den going to get his com fixed cos its down wif virus again! argh!! den probably gonna go n get my hp or jus a mp3 player or wad gadgets stuff to spice up my boring life...n oh! gonna get e concealer reese recommended me cos its realie good.. say bye to dark circles! yeah~

FUCKING SHIT

2005-09-11T20:16:00.000+08:00

THAT FUCKING KID GOT HERSELF A REAL DAMN LOUD ELECTRONIC LANTERN TT SHE PLAYS NON STOP.....................................................................
THERE GOES MY MUCH DEPRIVED SLEEPPPPPPPPP!
ARGH
AND THE DAMN THING IS THAT SHE PLAYS IT AT MY DOOR ENTRANCE.. SO AS TO ATTRACT THE DOG TO PLAY WIF HER.. ONLY RESULTING MY DOG TO GET SCARED OUT OF HER WITS..
THANK GOD SEP HOLS FOR PRI SCH KIDS R OVER BY 12 TONIGHT...................
AND THANK GOD I HAVE TIESTO'S N ARMIN'S TO ACCOMPANY ME ...
THE BATTLE OF TRANCE VS. THE DIN OF SILLY N IRRITATING KIDS
I FEEL SOOOOO TEMPTED TO THROW THE LANTERN OUTTA WINDOW...
ALONG WITH HER TOO!
I HOPE WHEN SHE IS 18 YEARS OLD SHE WILL HAVE A YOUNGER SISTER/COUSIN TT IS 10X WORST DEN HER..

tis few daes...

2005-09-11T06:54:00.000+08:00

wednesday- was sooo tired cos e past few daes only slp for 2 hrs each... so wed is like sleeping the whole while after i meet dear for dinner... when i reach his hse i jus flop onto his bed n i ended up sleeping on 2 boster instead of e bed.... thurs dear's off.. both of us wake up real late... went to town... get my dior waterproof eyeliner n lipstick den oso my lost mascara frm anna sui... went to eat BBF again yeah~ in e end we went hm n sleep e instant we lie dw.. dono y leh we jus soo soo tired... fri meet up wif reese in e evening.. we tok for ard 9 hrs lol.. but some hw time pass v fast.. went to tangs 1st to replace e eyeliner cos dey gave me e non waterproof one instead... in e end we tok till spinelli closes n ended up sitting by e roads of orchard... oh ya! e toilet at cine suddenly lights off n we both frk out hahaha after tt went to liquid room by foot.. till a distance den we decided to hop onto cabs.. good thing we did cos there is still a distance..when dey r abt to cls to meet our bf.. den we parted n me n dear went for supper at rivervalley.. reach hm bathe n sleeo almost instantly too.. dono y tis few daes i am damn tired... todae jus slack all e way after i walk up.. which is like realie late.. den head to great wrld meet dear for dinner.. don feel well.. like those before sicknees syntopms coming.. mon moving to new campus.. so happy finally man! its so near my dear hse tt i think i can slp 45 min more den usual daes!!! xD

SHOPPINGGGGGGGGGGGGG

2005-09-06T20:54:00.000+08:00

yeah todae is SHOPPING DAE! splurge splurge splurge... muz ctrl nt splurge still go shopping hahaaha...went to raffles city meet my sis walk rd her sch den head to PS... ended up in marche for lunch n head to paragon cos she wanna buy cds n i spend my time copying trance tracks .... head towards taka after tt n tt is when e splurging begins... actualie oso nv buy much la but those stuff is pretty exp tt y i feel like pocket got hole hahaha...den after tt go wisma den fareast but din get wead we wanted ... den head to mos burger for dinner n took cab home nw can barely open my eyes.... so tired.. i am so so tired jus reach hm... ytd oni slp 2 hrs later cant slp early sigh... tml gt e stupid media studies sigh sian sian... thrus oso her more sian.. fri worse both periods oso tt adv mod frm e boring tr... walow wad a week.... i am tired!!!!!!!!!! if tt bloody bitch dares to ibnterupt my much needed precious sleep on wec nite n thurs nite n fri nite she can prepare to go to hell cos one's temper is nv good when he/she don haf enuff rest!!!!!!!

Relief!

2005-09-06T02:57:00.000+08:00

finally i felt so relieved..... but nt extremely... at least i am able to tide over wad i am facing nw... tis week's pri sch hols.. guess wad.. i am predictiing tt one of my vessels will pop soon.. jus like i nearly did todae if nt for i am rushing to meet my IO.. one dae i will jus flung open e door n yell my head off tt fucking kid... i don realie care bout the consequences.... i dono maybe i am a lil concerned but she better stand away frm e line i am definitely nt a pushover anyone who noes me will tell her tt so she better watch her steps... its getting so bad tt i am toying wif e idea of adding rat poison to her food!! her mum is jus as much a sinner as she is cos she probably din teach her any decent manners... well one dae she will haf to learn it e hard way i guess... argh! fucking kid...

Why?

2005-08-31T18:09:00.000+08:00

I lost my BRAND NEW ANNA SUI MASCARA.. sObz.... sigh my heart so pain .... i keep thinking tt maybe i left it at hm or dear hse but nope i cant find it anywhere... whoever took it will haf rotten hands soon! y am i oways losing my things realei hate myself for being so blur cock.... reallie gonna ctrl my expenditure ler.... no more savings left... sigh.. gonna look for those v v v part time job soon if tis goes on... e 3 new mod is so boring... dey r so similar yet dey r diff hw to pass lyt.. starting to be worried bout my econs test realie praying i will pass lor...
FC aka BJ aka JB wadever lah pissed e hell outta me ytd.. n e worse is gonna be stuck wif her for e whole mod till it end.. sign..
so tired.. so so deprived of sleep!!!!!
anyway my IO finally contact me! hahaha.. hopefully the processing part will be fast!!

i realie realie realie hate COPYCATS...
copycats r pple who needa get a life lor!
i mean..
if u admire smthing doesnt mean u haf to copy wad
u copy other pple jus goes to show u r insecure n u r nt respecting the person's creativity lo..
not as if u wad ma can ownself think of new things don copy mah so no sense of originality eh
give me n urself a bit of respect???
try to think of new things n idea urself don copy frm pple lo other pple will oso noe is u copy de lo..
n i am sure u oso don like pple copy u de lor.. if u don like pple do smthing to u y even do tt smthing to other pple?
inspiration n direct leeching is totally two diff things n u shud noe urself u r under which category lor

Momo

2005-08-28T21:53:00.000+08:00

Ytd went to Liang court eat dinner wif dear den bought jj bdae pressie n went to club momo to celebrate her bdae.. spent one hr frm liang court trying to find my way dere... n the worse part is i pass by the building alot of times but dono is momo walow... den after jj n stan arrive n i saw wan xin my ex senior she become v pretty hahaha..not bad lor momo quite chio.. e toilet oso v chio hahaha.. many pple left quite early lo.. i felt quite happy seeing all my frens dere cos after i quit oso nv much contact.. den after i noe gordan nv come meet me reese elliot n me left n stan is drunk hahaha.. den dis ridiculous guy sae he saw me b4 wif his fren think he seh becos its my 1st time to momo n i dono any of his frens name.. haha reach hm quite early den play e com some hw time pass v fast den dear come home ler suddenly craving for century egg porridge so we wait till 7am n go to the market n eat.. v nice sia... craving satisfied yeah! den after tt we went hm n slp den evening he go wrk n i dawdle abit b4 going to Great world city to haf dinner wif him.... den managed to find e cai yan tt i wan but as we nt eating food court gotta wait till after dinner den go back dere to buy.. hahahahaha.
i love to meet dear during his break cos i noe he love to c him during his break ahaha... but tho its oni 1hr 15 min but we treasure the time together.. sound like we don meet up alot? but its jus e opp.. we meet up all e time.. but its nv enuff haha... tml is another term ler.... aftr sch gonna meet dear.. yippie! n tues meet reese n elliot~!

broke again!

2005-08-26T01:54:00.000+08:00

aiyo broke broke broke so broke nw when is my inspector going to call me i wan him to call me so badly tt i even dream tt he gt call me haha... tis 2 daes buy alot of things... tues n wed... bought 4 clothes n one skirt frm forever 21 n a top frm future state lyt ard left a bit of money den after tt splurge on anna sui stuff cos i wan e make up bag n i tot can shun bian buy my foundation refill so another 120 gone sian worse still haven buy my skin care products.. so wed go n buy nw pocket left kohsong hahaha... some mroe still gt so many many things to buy.. sian... but suan ler la since money one dae oso will be spend finish de nw can only pray my IO faster call me lo..

always on my mind

2005-08-20T23:36:00.000+08:00

when i'm at home.. i miss gordan
yet when i over at his place i miss my family...
:(
hw i wish i can divide myself into 2..

tis 6+ mths made me realised hw much i actualie love my family.. i guess nt going home tt often jus make me think of dem even more... distance make one's heart fonder huh..
as my clock is pretty much in e night.. moments of sitting together in e living rm means a lot to me.. even if e conversation is nt abt me hearing my parents chattering.. (minus e gossip part) can be pretty pleasant..
As for my 2 sisters.. well some hw i'm glad of tt incident tt happen to my da jie a week ago as nw i haf a excuse to pop over to her rm n slp over.. which i am still doing whenever i'm home.. chatting wif her till we sleep is actualie a gd way to fall asleep.. suddenly.. sharing a rm wif siblings seems so good.. i wud sae tt my sister is my best fren haha..
as for my younger sis.. seeing her grw up make me kinda miss e old snoopy pyjamas her.. but den again.. i like e "lo koh" nw too..poping cute remarks nw n den makes her so irresistable.. Jappy girl will def grw up to be a belle.. i'm so sure.. haha..
Suddenly many things seem so unimportant now.. becos my life jus simply evolves ard my family n gordan n i felt so blessed becos i haf dem n i am contented..
awwww i'm so so in love wif dem.. sounds weird huh... well nt to me becos dere is a period of time in my early teens when i almost certainly hate everyone.. glad its jus a phase.. pheww..

Thrusday

2005-08-19T00:16:00.000+08:00

Before i start i jus wanna sae smthing.. smthing to tt LOSER who wanna sabo me n dear HAHAHAHAHA eh wakeup la ur tis tactic hor toooooooooo childish n lousy ler la.. C don even bother to reply u cos she think u damn bo liao lo.. tho e sms u send her is quite long ago n when i was still wrking so wad?? she oso nv stop us or wad lah hor in fact she even show dear the sms n we luff... n she tell dear : there is nth to hide wad.... hmm but judging tt u were ald terminated for so long n dono wads been happening well i cant be bothered to sae either.. all i can sae is ur effort go to waste la.. so wake up lah hor.. tho i only noe it ytd but i jus find it so FUNNY cos u resort to tis kinda no life loser tactic .. wanna tell tale in e end only reflect on wad kinda person u r to C only ma.. n C even tell dear to bring me dw to burn incense paper today together lor.. so maybe i still haf to thank u cos u help us to break e news in such a wonderful way...
and oh! i din sae who is e loser hor! so some pple don too sensitive hor.. if u suspect tt u r e loser n u not happy.. ok lo don come my blog lor.. nobody sae my site need ur support hor..

ok enuff of tt loser ... Todae went out wif my sister to watch charlie n the chocolate factory... its our childhood dream cos we love e book so much n we r sooo glad it came out as a movie but we tot Johnny Depp din make a good Willy Wonka.. hmm.. nvm overall its like 4 n a half stars... :P finally got her to taste e BBF tt i love so much n i'm glad she love tt too.. anyway while we were on our way to cine to purchase our tickets we stop by e Vichy rd show n get a free skincare basic kit n a skin consultation n e person told us in detail abt our skin.. n she said my skin is quite good overall but i haf to be careful of pigmentation n fine lines due to my dry areas.. anyway we were out to buy the best moisturiser in town cos we both desperately wan a gd moisturise n e best way is to try everything n in e end we ended up in a dilemma cos some of e products r equally gd... in e end after running abt n trying for hrs we both get the Kiehl's moisturiser cos well celebraties don swear by it for nth.. tho quite ex.. but i'm happy la as long as it can help my skin can ler.. actualie i still prefer e clarins moisturiser but nvm la wait for one dae i old ler den buy tt lor.. haha.. actualie wanna buy a few more skin care products but on budget lah so nvm wiat till gt money 1st.. n for dinner we ate at fish n co... pig out haha.. the foood is soooo delicious.. fully satisfy my craving.. hee.. n i left my kiehl bag dere so in e end i run all e way back to find it thank god the person nv take.. if nt i sure cry... so happy gonna c dear in 4 hrs time yippie~

updates...

2005-08-17T20:28:00.000+08:00

Saturdae went to celebrate suilan bdae... i'm glad i went cos haven seen all of dem for so long...tho we haven realie contact for v long but e feeling isnt tensed up or wad.. in fact everyone is still as crazy haha.. din eat alot cos i dono leh nt much appetite.. go home quite early but its definitely enjoyable..hopefully there will be more outings like tis cos its realie nice to do some catching up...

Sundae dear off dae... settle some stuff den quite late ler went to taka kinokuniya (spell correct?) cos he wanna buy book for his job HAHA den after tt we went to far east n eat e beer battered fish its realie nice... we oso order the calarmari n caramelized sausage... wOo v v nice.. till we so full n wanna die den jus lyt only n we go home ler...

Monday he go wrk n me bought dinner for his break.. tho its nth special but sitting by e river n lying on his shoulders wif a gentle breeze.. the feeling is so nice.. tho its jus his break n he gotta go back after ard an hr but we had such a good time chilling out.. n some body saw us siann.. but shud be ok ba ... anyway i tell ah dear its v relaxing n he sae too bad nv bring note book so he can write down den i blur cos i dono wad he toking.. den turn out cos when we were at thailand resting at a small cafe at chatuchak he mentioned something abt relaxing too n i wrote it down in his note book "ah dear sae its so relaxing bla bla bla.." n he find it v funnie hahahaha.. he made me realised tt we don haf to spend time at a posh restaurant or wad.. but even a simple bench beside e river can jus be as wonderful....as long as we r beside each other :)

Tueday.. his off again hahaha.. woke up quite late ard 4 den by the time we go out ard 7 ler.. went to holland v.. erm i noe its damn wad but i'v nv been dere b4.. cos its oso been quite out of place for be until i noe him cos he live ard tt area..n its abit like thailand.. dono leh dere jus remind me of thailand lor... after walking ard n ard for 45 min den we finislly can decide where to eat cos we r both v indecisive in e end we walk ard till e pple atanding out e cafes can recognise us n wanna luff when dey c we keep walking ard..so we ate at tis realie nice restaurant..i noe e shop name has something "rose" de.. but forget e exact one.. tho it quite ex.. but its quite worth it.. i order a baked dory n he order a steak n both r realie realie nice e ambience is realie romantic n we were toking hw nice if its our porch etc.. its realie a great evening..n e bad thing is dere r mosquitoes.. e bite add on to those i got on sat nite n my leg is nw full of red dots grrrrrrr.... so after dinner we decide to go for a drink but den again we dono where to go.. tho e sound bar wud be ideal cos its some sort the place we met.. (haha but i don wan later haf to see some bitch face eee spoil my dae den sian 1/2) we were chosing btw acid bar/lash/dbl o (i don like)/ CU / Velvet n e wine bar dere n in e end after much much discussion we decided to go to e wine bar at zouk dere... actualei we plan to go velvet de but its only 9 + 10 only so we tot we 'd go drink at e wine bar.. who noes once we reach dere we sit dere till 12+ n we nv go velvet in e end ler.. e ambience is like 2 out of 5 .. realie don like it.. e staff knowledge of liquor is like 10/100? dey dono alot of cock tails n e menu only haf 5 or 6 cocktails 5/6 shooters... any way e reason y we r stuck dere so long cos dear haf UOB mini visa so its 1 for 1 for us!!! haha yeah... thank god he brought his card.. so we order a Cosmopolitian followed by a Frozen peach daiquiri den a Screaming (Baileys/kahlua/milk) its my fav!! den a glass of white wine n all of tis is one for one so we end up hafing one each.. within 2 hrs.. n we r like realie full... n dey don haf wad we wanted ( i wanted june bug / green eyes/ Bacardi 151) all don haf lo grrrrr.. call tt a wine bar? no way.. so we left pretty early... but i muz sae i realie enjoyed myself ... n i noe dear oso v happy... after tt we went home n we sleep all the way till 5+ n den we wake up n bathe den watch anime n sleep.. n nw i'm back at my own home.. tml gonna watch movie wif my sis.. charlie n e choc factory!! yeah our childhood ~! n after tt i guess i'd go his hse cos all my books r dere i needa study for my exams nx week.. anyway ytd at e wine bar elliot called us n we plan to go out together on dear nx off dae wif reese as well.. so tt is another thing for me to look forward! in fact i'm loving my study week cos no need to go sch.. gawd i realie resent sch man~..

I'M GONNA EXPLODE

2005-08-14T02:26:00.000+08:00

I'M SO FUCKING PISSED WIF TT FUCKED UP KID I'M REALIE GONNA EXPLODE WIF E AMT OF ANGER ACCUMULATED IN ME FUCKING HELL I WISH SHE'D DIE ASAP MY LIMIT IS REACHING THE 99TH PERCENT HER FUCKING VOICE JUS PISSED E HELL OUTTA ME I WANNA SLAP HER TML IF SHE DARE TO WAKE ME UP WIF E DIN SHE IS MAKING AT 7 AM AGAIN SHE THINK TT THE WHOLE WRLD WAKES UP AT 7 LIKE HER ISSIT BITCH FUCKING HELL I REALIE GONNA KILL HER ONE DAE TIS IS A KIND OF MENTAL TORTURE IF SHE IS MY KID I'D THROW HER DOWN E BUILDING FUCKING HELL FOR 6MTHS PLUS SHE HAS BEEN TORTURING ME N TIS IS IT I'M NT GONNA PUT UP WIF IT ANY MORE BE IT 7AM OR 7PM E SIGHT OF HER JUS MAKES MY HAND ITCH LIKE HELLL ANGER IS REALIE GONNA KILL ME ONE FINE DAE GRRRRRRRR IF I EVER DECIDE NT TO HAF KID TIS BLOODY KID WILL BE E REASON !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HOPE U'D FUCK OFF FRM TIS WRLD ASAP BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry i noe i'm violent but if u were me i guess u wun be any better imagine... she wakes up at 7 am n she makes such a BIG DIN shouting ard like a red indian n playing wif some ass toys of her tt plays music n riding ard in e hse wif sound effects n mummy mummy here n dere for say half an hr b4 she takes a break n continue n HER PARENTS DO NTH ABT IT BLOODY HELLLLLL!!!tis is nt e 1st time or 2nd or 3 rd or 4th or 5th its the 100th time n i tried .. i REALIE TRIED TO PUT UP WIF IT OK.... imagine even if e door is cls i can still be awaken by tt fucking noise she makes everytime she is ard honestly i realie feel like killing her n she is a fucking spoilt brat n she think e dog is hers n when e dog is wif us sleeping but she jus wanna wake us up diliberately using all sorta ways like shouting screaming n everythingggggggg jus right outside e doooor !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so tt she can get e dog n e din she make is realie TERRIBLE when she cry out of small lil things n her parents don spank her n she jus continue howling n howling n howling n howling LOUDER N LOUDER WTF WTF WTFFFFFFFFFF i tell u i am getting hysterical u gt no idea hw much its driving me nuts absolutly nuts ARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH don gimme e crap tt kids r lyt becos kids aint lyt ok nt if u gt teach ur kids some manners n some stuff dey aint gonna turn out lyt ok i don c my younger sis lyt when she is 7 or 8 ok n tis girl is 7 or 8 but she behaves like a 3 yr old with no brains man n she is super hyper n she realie gets on my nerves i wanna kill her tis v moment arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr n jus ard half an hr ago she comes back n e same old awful din starts again n my blood jus boillllllllsssss frm e moment she open her damn mouth n KPKB ALL THE WAY ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR i realie dono wad to do tell me man tell me wad can i do SOMEBODY SAVES ME n one more thing to do all tis to a sleep-deprived-plus-potenially-depressed-plus-facing-so-many-probs-n-issues-person SHE IS DIGGING HER OWN BLOODY GRAVE GOD PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE SSAVE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

["x"]

2005-08-11T19:06:00.000+08:00

hMmM

2005-08-10T00:21:00.000+08:00

smthing disturbing happen to my sis ytd nite much as i hate to admit .. i am realie frk out too.. but i believe her fear is like 2x of mine.. was praying all e while n chris called in for conference too... thank god she was online at tt moment ... well i tot she is like e best person to assure my sis... but i don deny its freaky as well... so issit pure imagination or e unexplainable? no one will ever noe but i guess its oways to take precaution .. i love my family n i FORBID anything or wadsoever shit to harm dem.. its all in my mind.. if i chose nt to believe in its existance nth can harm me... will be praying for her tonite... n i noe she'd still be frk out too.. n ironically e tv is showing e adv for THE MAID nw.. grrr e producers think its soo soo funnie huh.. lame ass..

self reflection

2005-08-09T01:50:00.000+08:00

i realised tt over e yrs i realie change alot.. i mean who doesnt? all my life i keep urging time to move faster.. even nw.. (n i am sure i wun regret for tis period of time.. till nx yr june 18th) all my life i hate sch.. except when i am P5 n 6 when i got e 4 peas in a pod.. dey made a huge diff in my life.. n tt is probably e only period of time tt i miss..
i miss thailand.. i miss the 4 precious daes.. tho alot of things sux.. but tt 4 daes i realie treasure alot.. listening to don phunk wif my heart jus remind me of e hotel cos everydae b4 we sleep n when we jus wake up e tv will play e song.. i promise myself tt i'll go dere wif him again n live e 4 or more daes over again..but gotta wait till nx yr when i finish sch..
Now i live my life waiting for the future to arrive.. simply wishing tt time will jus fly as fast as possible.. i wanna start wrk again.. don wanna be stuck n bounded by sch.. simply so sick of it.. its like only e 4th week n i'm ald damn sick of it.. simply dono hw to pass e rest of e yr..
There's alot i wish to change in me..my weird mindset.. my too emotional soul.. my stubboness.. my temper my impatience my indecisiveness my impulsive nature my sterotype thinking.. if only dey'd be gone i guess i'l be a better person..
Maybe partly tt y i love him so much.. becos he is everything i am nt.. he is jus like e other half who balance me.. or at least get a hold on me as i can get so off e hook.. i wonder if i am of any good for him? he is one person who made me feel tt he is so much better den i am .. haha n not many pple make me think tis way.. many pple might have a thing or two to sae abt his age.. but let me sae tis once n for all.. his age is perfect for me.. well given tt i'm more mature den a num of pple its only normal tt i love some one more steady, reliable, seccure n mature.. n he is e one..
He can give me good advices when i'm at lost ..n trust me nt everyone can give me useful ones.. he tell me his experience n guide me in life.. he is oways beside me making sure i don fall down.. becos he noe where i'd fall.. as he has been thru all tis b4.. he give me love n concern as well as understand my emotions.. he makes me listen dispite me being stubbon but becos its him.. i listen.. maybe its outta love initially tt i try to listen but later on i'd realise he is rite all along.. u noe e kinda feeling? like even e sky falls dw he'd still be dere beside u assuring u tt e sky will go up in a moment hahaha even if it wun.. he makes me believe tt it will.. i'm nt saying he's a saint.. jus simply saying tt he is e perfect one for me..
I hate games.. (well i still hate dem) but i find myself looking at warcraft becos he plays it.. i used to hate anime n comics.. he managed to make me fall in love wif anime.. so funny..
Maybe its e environment tt i;m brought up in.. oways being forced to do the things tt i hate.. v given a choice.. tt made me goes all softy when he use e soft approach.. n maybe he understand tt y he noes hw to handle me..
oh god i'm jus so in love wif him!

Tsubasa

2005-08-08T02:24:00.000+08:00

"But when u want to cry, you have no choice but to become stronger. So that you can survive anything that happens without crying. . ."

Weekend

2005-08-07T01:43:00.000+08:00

went out wif vivan.. so long nv c her ler.. miss her v nuch so i'm v happy tt we can meet up... after drinking some stuff frm coffee bean we went to search for dear present cos tml which is e 7th is our 6 mths anni.. hee... after finally buying 3 items we went to eat at marche n head hm... actualie wanna go club but i cant go there... so in e end we jus go hm lor...
tis morning saw dear's testi.. i was so touched.. its realie sincere nt like some craps like "we noe each other by wad wad wad , she wad wad wad.. i wad wad wad stuff... tis is like e 1st testi in my life tt i treasure so much .. still sae wad dono hw to express himself... siao tis is like e best way he cud ever express.. heee.. tml 6 mths ler too bad he gotta wrk.. so fast.. time realie past v fast.. he frm a stranger become everything in my life... realie cant imagine life w/o him nw.. hopefully we can last till e end of time.. love forever him . . .

REVAMP - again

2005-08-06T01:09:00.000+08:00

hahaa ya i v bo liao so i decided to revamp my site again.. nth much jus change abit of details n add a lil more stuff :P sorry for broken links for nw

sObz

2005-08-05T00:04:00.000+08:00

I shudnt have cut away my hair! tho its damn dry but i'm missing it like hell nw!!!!! 2 inches. . . when will it grw back i look like a damn fool nw!

F* up

2005-08-04T01:12:00.000+08:00

feeling fucking cynical n everything negative nw.. i hate it when my life is being ctrl in dis way... i cant do wadever i wanna do nw... todae is wed i cant even go club cos tml got sch n if i go i'l get damn drunk n i wun be able to go to sch.. i miss my o life again.. i wanna go back... right to the start.. i resent all tis shit.. argh!! feeling so pek cek yet unable to do anything to improve or change the situation..

i'ved realised.. i shant trust anyone any more except for him..

PISSED

2005-08-03T22:15:00.000+08:00

I hate to be at home..subjected to violence n abuses... n judgement..
i hate all e shouts all e curses directed at me
i hate to wake up wif a jerk cos by a huge slap
i hate e feeling of inseccurity n not knowing wad will happen to me nx..
i hate pple to keep hurrying me or nagging me
i hate e tensed up atmosphere..
i hate e way i was treated like i grew up eating glass pieces
i hate e fact tt he can be so obviously bias with no shame of showing it out
i hate e way he treat us like thrash or animals.. hurling wrds of abuses at us
i hate to cry out of fear
i hate pple to lie to me abt the time.. as if i have no watch!
i hate it when he wake me up b4 i shud wake up
i hate to wake up by his shouts
i hate it when he blames me for things i din do
WTFFFFFFFF
all e cursing is drving me mad
i jus wanna shout : HEY I AM UR DAUGHTER OKAY!
so wad if he might nt mean it n was probably driven by his ever so hot temper?
does it gives him e rigth to abuse us mentally/emotionally??
i do get hot too okay!
n he is not the only one who noes hw to curse!

i miss my boy..
he'd nv treat me lyt..
being wif him.. i feel so secure.. unlike nw.. sigh
i feel like moving out!!!!!
when will i ever find peace???

Good Day!

2005-08-03T02:55:00.000+08:00

Todae dear off.. we went to raffles city to meet my sister... walk ard n after v v v long we decided to eat at Suntect Fish & Co.. The whole dining experience is amusing. in fact the whole day was.. haha.. so we order a seafood platter for dear, seasonal catch wif cajun for me n smk salmon caesar salad for sis n we order tis free flow mango karot thingy. Obviously both my sis n dear think tt its weird tt i like garlic so much cos i simply toppled the whole cup of it on my fish. n the free flow thingy, we jus keep drinking n drinking n drinking n finally we cant drink any more so we order another new glass n poured it into my sis empty bot n keep it haha. all e while we were afraid tt e staff wud c it n we tried so hard to keep it frm their sight haha. after e meal dey gave us 3 candies which ended up all in my mouth cos dey were egging me to chew it all together n show it to dem in e end i nearly choke cos e whole 3 peace of sweet is so huge tt i cant speak properly n all of us jus keep luffing n luffing. after e v v full meal we walk ard n decided to go grocery shopping at Carefour.. it was v fun! we bought so many junk ! so much food tt it can last me n dear for at least 2 to 3 weeks.. n dear bought tis can of whipped cream.. simply wonderful cos its my dream to jus eat the whole can away haha..bought tis v v nice nougat for a v cheap price yeah! and bought 2 pizza cos dear likes it.. e whole lots of thing cost nearly $60 .. so exp... after tt we went to coffee bean for coffee n cheesecake.. tok alot fo craps etc... den went to wait for cab e waiting time took up 30min! but while waiting all of us were luffing away n having a relaie good conversation.. ah dear la like to act act.. haha.. jus finished my assignment! feel soo good.. din do it ytd as i was doing the header.. (nice ma?) i jus like e song sweetest day so much! so after hearing it i was so inspired n decided to do the header... anyway its pretty late shud go n slp soon! hopefully dere will be an outing like tis again... :P

i miss chrisline :|

2005-08-02T01:10:00.000+08:00

..Memoriess..
i miss her soo much!! ytd me n chris chatted pretty long.. hopefuuly it wun cost much! reallie looking forward to her trip in feb.. its was as tho its ytd tt she flew to holland.. i miss her laughters sooo much.. she plays a v imp role in my life tt no one will eva understand.. our special bonding is something i treasure alot.. sigh realie miss her!!so near yet so far.. hearing her voice is as tho she is jus nx to me.. sharing our liife together.. e conversation jus made me miss here even more.. if oni she is still in spore.. my life will be so much better.. flashes of us going out togehter.. toking at her hse for hrs.. can u imagine we jus sit dere n tok all dae long! i cant do tt wif anyone man.. all e memories.. sigh feel like crying man.. sobz ..she is jus so special.. emil is such a lucky fellow haha..suddenly feb seem so near.. which is a gd thing in fact i cant wait to c her ! sigh i realie miss her so much. . .
tml my ah dear off.. yeah!..went to take my cheque jus nw.. so sad.. miss my wrk place so much.. afterall its e place tt brought him into my life.. n i guess i realie cant ask for anything much.. tho we r together for 6 mths ald.. but memories of us is so fresh .. sometimes i'll jus sit dere n reminisce those daes.. so sweet haha.. those toopid things tt made us fall so crazy in love wif each other.. i felt so blessed to haf him.. he brought me so much love n peace into my life.. n oso its him tt brought me to noe chris.. tt is another blessing too!! he is everything good in my life.. i cant imagine my life w.o him.. even jus seeing him makes me smile.. simple as it sound but nt everyone haf tis power okie.. suddenly i rem tt dae when chris emil me n dear meet up n we sat at hotel rendevouz n tok.. den all of us starting saying y we r attracted to our e other halves.. so sweet haha.. aiyo.. i'm like living in e past.. sad.. cos i'm nw in e present n i noe much as i wish i cant go back to e past again..
jus receive a sms frm tong li.. aiyo so sweet.. he is one precious fren in my life tt i'd nv forget.. frens for like 4 years ler.. time realie past v fast.. he is realie some one who stood firm by me when i'm at my most depressed stage of my life.. n its nt easy esp when i was so sucidal back den.. suddenly i needa thank Friendster.. like bring me back so many frens.. n made us closer..
think i'd end here n go n do my assignment if i don do todae i dono wad i'm gonna hand up tis fri haha.. n my dear gonna come home soon yeah!

thots..

2005-07-30T00:30:00.000+08:00

haf u ever felt empty tho u r occupied.. even when my life is in e full swing mode.. i still feel empty.. funnie rite.. alot of things made me think of e past todae.. hw my life used to be so fun den nw like so lifeless.. i kinda miss those happening daes.. i miss my v-long-nv-contact-but-still-frens friends..like todae wake up den me n dear go harbour front n eat pasta... den walk ard den he go wrk den i feel even emptier haha.. den i head hm.. on e train some kids who are behaving like dere father bought e train KP all e way frm harbour front to hg.. i cant beleive it.. n all e passengers stare at them but dey liek no kick lyt.. even worse dey aloghted at e same stop as me /me faint . . . after tt went hm.. ctv use com try to keep my rm but no mood thru half way.. jsu lyt i spend liek ard 6 to 7 hr ler..wad a waste of time.. n i miss him.. sigh.. suddenly feel like taking cab to his hse nw.. but i n oe i cant la tml gt sch.. but i'd be going dw tml after sch which is 12..i'm gettign worried.. tis is liek e 2nd week of sch so far still quite slack i neo nx term wun be so slack ler cos nx term gt 3 sub nw oni gt 2.. next term hw to fin dtime to pei him neh .. hai dono la.. even if u ask me nw i'd still sae i regret taking up dip... tho i no longer resent it as much but .. i still don like it.. nw i thinking hw to go dw n take cheque.. think i'd go on mon cos e bitch nt wrking.. todae ***** sms me n tell me wad she heard frm e bitch.. wah! i realie fucking hot at tt moment but after awhile i cool dw n i tell myself .. e more she wanna provoke me it will jus end up reflecting badly cos now i did nth wrg if i were to tok thigns out i wun lose cos i am aware tt my concious is clear jus tt i don c e need to waste my time over tis kinda bitch.. aiya n oso once i take e cheque i wun ever needa c her again so i hack la.. she wan sae wad let her sae lo.. i told ***** tt let her sae cos my true frens will noe its nt e truth.. n those who chose to believe e bitch jus proved to me tt dey r nt worthy of our friendship.. human can be so so poisonous.. esp bitches like e fucker.. i'm like practically cursing thruout my blog.. shall try to stop tt.. gonna go n continue tidying my rm.. miss him

I'm sooo broke sobx

2005-07-28T01:07:00.000+08:00

sigh ever since ytd my mood v bad.. reopen FS to find back friends to get their num.. todae dear off so we went to town n walk walk .. in e end i spend $250 ! sian no money ler realie broke left like 2 bucks only.. sigh! bought 3 half cardigans n a top frm Zara.. den buy Anna Sui Secret Wish perfume n after tt go tangs to buy Stila highlighter... heng anna sui nv change e gift for over a $100 purchase cos if i not i sure splurge on many anna sui items de.. i tot tt after a shopping trip i will be happier but no lor i stil v sad over my lost hp i realie curse tt fucker lo.. HAIS i realie dono hw lah.. den all e more i shud nt waste money lyt ma.. but i tot after splurging i will be happier tt y i luan luan buy lo.. nw regret.. shud haf save e $ to buy a new hp instead.. but den i oso don haf any hp i liek n i think buy back e same 6260 like v toopid lyt.. e only one i kinda like is N90 frm nokia so maybe i will get tt but haven launch n e sales girl tell me even if launch starting oso over 1k.. si bei sian nah.. hais.. nw i realie v down lo i no mood for everything jus nw at fareast even brk dw cos of certain things.. todae is realie a bad dae la.. tis 2 daes i realie waste alot of money.. like ytd go blow my hair i oso dono for wad shit den buy tis buy tt liek so bo liao cos safter i lost my hp i try every way to make me happy but realie cant lo not even my fav - shopping.. whenever i think of my hp i realie feel v pissed n sad i feel nlike killing e ass hole lo don let me noe who issit lo.. hais.. i feel like looking for a job again.. but den if i wrk i realie dono hw to cope wif my sch.. if don wrk no money wad a dilemma.. sigh.. I HATE TT FUCKER WHO STOLE MY HP! SOBBBBBBBBBBBBB

I LOST MY HP!! SOBX

2005-07-26T22:09:00.000+08:00

todae after i meet my inspector i took a cab which resulted me to lost my hp on e cab min after i get dw i call e cab company n my own hp was switched off n i knew tt is it wun get back ler... My precious 6260 HAIS sadded i relaie v sad nw frm 4 oclock keep find n cry same time even go back to bugis where i blow my hair to find oso cant... actulaie i heart pain e pic n message nw no more ler i dono hw.. inside gt dear send me those sms n all e pic including e ones i took todae while i was getting my hair blown.. den e hair become v nice.. nw i regret if i noe i don spend e $40 bucks go blow hair cos wun last some more i need money to buy hp nw esp when i jus resigned frm tt toopid job! some more inside e MMC gt all my webbie de things cos i noe i todae coming dear hse to stay so i save in e mmc n bring here nw lost ler i realie dono hw i am so devasted n sad n angry WHICH FUCKER TOOK MY HP? i even sms e person sae u take e hp can jus return me sim n mmc.. sigh... all my frens who r readiong jus to let u noe as i lost my hp i no longer has any num pls email ur num n those pple whom u think i will wan e num (those i noe de la) to my address : s-h-e-r-l-y-n@hotmail.com thank u so much! n nw i cant continue do my header cos is in e mmc n ytd i ald finishign ler if i noe is tay up for few more min n get it done! sigh y y yy yy y y my hp lost wad did i do to let such a thing happen to me y is god doing tis to me ... nw my inspector cant get me oso i v wry... sigh i wan e case faster get it done lo nw lyt hw when he cant even contact me...
n toking abt my wrk its relaie FUCKED UP she is such a backstabbing bitch... wad i heard frm XXXXXX n XXXXX is enuff ler.. if its one or 2 years ago de me i think i ald slap her ler but cos grw up ler muz learn hw to ctrl.. i shall let god deal wif her one dae she will get it.. 100x more i hope.. i shant sae much here all those ard me ald noe so no point.. all i can sae is.. if tis is a trial i dont think i failed cos.. i noe tt i did my best n i haf no regrets.. but for her.. in her heart she will noe wad she did.. n one dae she will get something lyt in return.. or worse :) n may tt dae come soon fucking nb bitch hope u cross road kenna long.. u tis pcb hope u kenna disfigured n abused by ur husband forever HA!
i noe i sound v mean but if u all noe wad she did i guess wad i said in e above is no kick lo in e wrking wrld is lyt so complicated pple in front nice nice need a favour frm u nice nice dne behind all e real color come out.. backstab riote v fun hor heng all my frens come n tell me n of cos heng i got my bf wif me.. as for u .. tis pathetic loser.. one dae u will die with no one by urside cos u r simply to evil n poison.. FUCK OFF BITCH u will get it some dae.. n god will see it done..

so much anger in me rite nw.. hasnt been a good week.. but amist all tis negative emotions.. i found peace... cos i noe it doesnt matter if e whole wrld lets me down..as i got him n tt is enuff :) tis going-to-be 6 mths has been great.. hopefully it will go on like tt..

my "blown" hair

REVAMP IN PROCESS

2005-07-24T18:56:00.000+08:00

as u can c e blog is undone cos i revamping it... well its my habbit as i venture into another chapter of my life to change its skin as to me it symbolises a new beginign .. fucked up craps nsince last nite till todae.. BITCH.. i will tok abt it when my revamp is completed.. well by tonight tt is =P left my header n some pics n i'll be done!

nth will get me down.. asshole

Sch's 1st dae.. n 2nd dae..

2005-07-19T18:53:00.000+08:00

todae is my 2nd dae at sch... sigh don talk abt 2nd dae tok 1st dae 1st... ok lo go to class alot of pple ler v cold cos outside rain + e rm v cold.. den take e text bk n sat at e back so far frm e board cant c wtf was written sian... my tr ok lo ... but look v cheena.. haha.. was surprised tt her eng was fluent... anyway i braced myself up n tried to concentrate but i realie v tired cos 8 am sleep den 12+wake ler... but i managed to listen wad she saying.. e sch v like ymca last yr i dere lyt... den ok lo but my clasds v weird n big i don like sia.. n alot of china pple.. not i wan discriminate dem but i jus don like dem norh.. den my tr release us 1/2 an hr earlier so i went to bugis meet my bf as i so early release n i don wan to wait for him at my sch cos i jus wanna leave e place ASAP i dono y leh i think i tis person v weird its not i wad lor jus tt i v hate sch no matter is wad as long as is sch i will hate to go lor.. i think cos i am more of a hands on person ie.. i can do well for practical but not for theory.. n i keep gt e mindset wrk is better cos got money some more i reallie miss my wrk place sia sob sob... den after tt me n dear go eat at bugis dono wad thai restaurant.. i don realie like but as i realie dono wad to eat n i don wan eat mos burger again cos recently keep eat so me n him go dere lo... den after tt go sasa tt STUPID salesger cheat me sia.. sae e new tigi curl rock thingy is leave in conditioner v good only gt 12 pieces if i don buy later on will sold out within 3 daes den i go believe n buy.. $23 den i nv read jus buy den all e while i think v funny leh cos i rem curl rock range e leave in is not lyt de is round de but i nv think too much only when i go back to dear hse den i use n i noe is styling product n i so angry cos i got tell e sales ger i don wan styling de i wan conditioner type de cos my hair dry ma.. den she still sae is leave in conditioner some more i realie sae alot of times sia i v angry nw saying all tis grrr.. den after tt me n dear go walk ard... nv buy anything ba.. ya n we got take love getti got one pic v cute my dear head bent vert opp dono hw he do v toopid.. c when i not lazy to scan den will upload e pic.. i cant realie rem wad else we do..oh ya my manager called me n wanted me to wrk tis wed sigh i v soft spoken.. i agreed tho i noe i sure v tired i nv wrk nw oso tired sia... after take pic me n dear go bugis e basement buy alot of small small food n eat.. n we go cold storage buy grocery for his hse n my toiletries cos my hse de finishing ler.. den go back his hse den chatted wif mee li den we both realised we regret take up duploma..n we sae if only we go take up make up class sigh.. den we sae we both like cosmetic.. shud open shop together..haha... if only nw we can den i wun be so stress... i realie don like schling.. sobz... she at least gt fren wif her i don haf so sian go sch feel like an idiot...
i've been thinking quite alot... i think nw i resent sch so much cos it totally changed my life ard.. b4 sch start i got all e freedom i wan n can go wherever i wan at wadever the time is but nw.. i totally gt no life ler.. i v sad.. i cant pei my dear like last time everydae at his hse... i nw keep missing him n i don like e feeling.. n nw i got sch i cant wrk i no money i hw to survive wif jus my allowance? i realie hate sch i can feel myself sinking into depression.. gradually.. i am losing my smile.. nw i don even dare to slp cos i noe time pass v fast when i asleep... n when my eyes open morning ler need to go sch ler i realie don wan me to become lyt.. nwadaes i keep crying over alot of issues... n when i think of dem its all link to sch lo.. if i no sch i can wrk i no need wry abt money if i no sch i don need to wry abt my time cos i will haf alto of time as i only wrk a few daes.. if i no sch i can live wif dear if i no sch i no need c e sun n live e life in e day cos i only like night life... if i no sch i wun be so moody if i no sch i can sleep in peace if i no sch i wun be so tired cos nw i everydae sleep like 4 hrs e max only cos i wan cut dw on sleeping time as i realie dread sch... if i no sch i no need waste so much money on transport if i no sch i can go out any time i wan not like nw stuck in tis timing n timetable so dead... every dae sleep wake up go sch come home lyt nia.. hais wad can i do nw!!.... sigh so far 2 daes i ald feel like ages... i am still clinging on... hw to tahan 1 yr.. when i think abt it i feel so sick n sad.. i realie don wan tis kinda life tt i hate.. i wan my old life back.. e past 7 to 8 mths had been wonderful i wanna go back.. i keep on whining n i think all my life tis is e only thing i whine abt i don whine abt other thigns lo i promise myself nw tt i will nv go n take up n thing again i wun go to sch again tis is n will be my last yr as a student i will nv put up wif tis kinda shit again.. if nw can refund i sure refund but i noe its impossible..

I AM SO FRKING TIRED !

Revamp. . .

2005-07-18T02:46:00.000+08:00

A revamp will be on the way.. cos i'll be having lotsa free time.. n i dono if its good or bad.. i miss my darling
-mUaCk!eS-
jus lesser den 24 hr n i am in dis state... -.- dono hw! imiss my bf i miss him alot i don wan to go sch i don wan things to change i v scare i noe i sound like a kid nw but i realie don wan y y y y y y did i chose to take dip GRRRR i don wan tis kinda life so wad if only one year one year oso v long ok i don wan i wan things to remain e same !! my ah dear coming home soon.. sigh.. thx god tml can c him after sch he will coem fetch me muacks dear i love u

Jus for fun

2005-07-18T01:07:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.

With respect to money, you spend whatever you have.

You think good luck will definitely be yours, someday.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be a little selfish. You only do what interests you.

You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you will search and search until you find your perfect match.

You Are 45% Normal
(Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal...
Other things you do are downright strange
You've got a little of your freak going on
But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

What's Your Personality Type?

The Inspirer
You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller!
You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

You Are A Fir Tree

You love anything beautiful, and you have extraordinary taste.
And while it's hard for you to trust, you care deeply for those close to you.
You are a social butterfly, and you have many friends.
You handle stress well - and you are a master at relaxing after a hard day.
Overall, you are modest, talented, unselfish, and very reliable.

You Have Good Karma

In general, you like to do the right thing when it comes to others.
Your caring personality really shines through.
Sure, you have your moments of weakness - and occasionally act out.
But, all in all, you're karma is good... even with those few dark spots.

You Are A Realistic Romantic

You are more romantic than 70% of the population.

It's easy for you to get swept away by romance...But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective.You're still taken in by love poems and sunsetsYou just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line!

sch is starting tml...

2005-07-18T00:27:00.000+08:00

was v interesting.. my last week of freedom was great... sat (9th) wrking was great... tho its hip hop n i hate but e pple made my dae.. tues dear's off went out n had fun.. bought alot of rubbish.. =( waste money again... QUITTING SMKING IS SO HARD BUT I DID IT... 6 days n still counting!! wed was good too ... wrk at my fav station.. n me n bjorn went totally crazy hahahahahahhahahaahhahahahahah anyway finally found tt song tt me n bjorn love so much n other couple of good tracks.. i was totally estactic when it was being played... anyway thurs... did i go out? erm... i think so.. ya i meet up wif my sis n we went shopping.. din buy anything ba after tt went drinking n many awful things happen don sae ler la jus sae i totally sian to e max.. :\ den fri went to ONYX no pple sia but did enjoyed myself la sat me n dear went to eat at marina bay tho quite late when we get dere n no food ler but we still v happy lo..den sun which is jus nw celebrated my younger sis bdae jus nw i reckon she like e present cos she seem to realie genuinely like it haha.. sian tml going sch ler.. SOBZZZZZZ 2 pm i so sian nw.. so sian till i dono wad to do is a phobia cos since young i hate sch lo tho nw goign to tis sch is my decision but i still resist it at tis v moment guess too many issues r making me lyt rite nw..
anyway i darkened my hair haha finally ! n i needa buy my hair stuff soon cos run out ler.. anyway i miss my bf damn alot.... sigh tis is one thing abt sch.. no more constant glueing to him sobz.. i miss him !! sigh nw terrorising myself wif awful tots.. i tot of my 1st dae in ymca last year.. it wasnt as bad as i tot too so hopefully tis wud be good but when i c e timetable i saw sat needa go back i v sian sia.. sigh tho most of e lessons only 3 hrs but who noes wad it will be once dey move to the uni campus u cant deny the fact tt i am lazy! becos tt is e truth.. i miss my bf.. - ya again.. tis few daes we spend every moment we cud hold on to as much as possible anyway e sch i going nt at bugis sian sia at aljunied walow i don even noe hw to go dere n dere so out of e place for me WALOW at 1st i chose mdis cos its at queenstown den near my bf hse so not so bad nw stuck dere wad to do sigh.. for at least a mth++ i noe i ythinkign too much but i noe tt no body noe hw much i am dreading sch rite nw i cant even be bothered to pack my bag etc... :( gotta charge my hp tonite so tt tml when sian can hear mp3.. anyway e only good news nw is MY BF TML OFF wahahhaahahahaha yeahhh but e bad thing is.. frm tues till nx week i wun be seeing him sigh.. i'm missing him so much!! :~

My birthday :D

2005-07-05T05:10:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: July 5

With a birthday on the 5th of the month you are inclined to work well with people and enjoy them.
You are talented and versatile, very good at presenting ideas.
You may have a tendency to get itchy feet at times and need change and travel.

You tend to be very progressive, imaginative and adaptable.
Your mind is quick, clever and analytical.
A restlessness in your nature may make you a bit impatient and easily bored with routine.
You may have a tendency to shirk responsibility

Back frm thailand a week le but don feel incline to tok abt it cos so much haf happpen n i noe i will rem e 4 daes always so no need blog ba but i gt enjoy myself oso gt part of it i unhappy but overall i still v happy tt dear bring me dere for a holiday b4 my sch start :D... bought lotsa bags n stuff for v cheap but dere keep sell same things de so walk long oso sian all e shop sell e design oso same de sia.. but realie v cheap la.. but gt a few unhappy incidents esp wif cabbies..n i hate e food dere.. n dere sell green tea everywhere sia u wan other drinks oso hard..gt regret nv buy a few things but don sae ler la.. todae my birthday... so happy.. tho haven celebrate cos tml den meet dear but i feel happy leh haha cos i noe he plan alot of thigns to surprise me ler tho i dono wad thing la but i v excited till don feel like sleeping.. anyway b4 i go meet dear later on in e day will get to celebrate wif my family.. so glad tt i can haf 2 celebrations ... anyway my younger sister bought me a realie nice precious moments foto frame n my elder sis bought me a bag charm (aka key chain wif lotsa ling long) tt has a butterfly!!!! jus wad i want.. so happy!! anyway.. nw finally 18 ler.. dono good or bad but i v happy my sch haven start so can realie enjoy.. i wrking till tis sat only son i can haf one week of freedom b4 sch starts.. realie v tired of wrking ler but i noe at e same time i will miss working dere cos wrk for 7 mths lyt ler.. sigh.. but i noe its time for me to leave la alot of reasons.. for my bdae wish i hope tt my family will be happy n stop having quarrel can live happily n peacefully n oso hope me n dear will be happy together forever till e end of time.. me n him together going 5 mths ler... he trt me v good n i neo he loves me alot so i cant ask for anything else except tt we will be happy.. i felt so blessed :) hopefully my 18th year on earth will be one of e happiest year

THAILAND HERE I COME!

2005-06-24T00:21:00.000+08:00

yeah! i going thailand soon sooooo excited!!!! i'm going frm sat to tues.. n i think i will be soooooo tired when i am back cos i am going to realie going to shop till i DROP hahahahaha... but of cos a couple of things i'm gotta keep in mind (well i noe myself too well)
1. Control - my temper (e sun n heat will "boost" my irritability) and its v unfair for my bf to put up wif it esp when he is ald so nice to bring me dere n he is such a nice n patient guy:P
2. Control II - my adrenaline level ( its likely for me to buy those stuff tt drives me nuts w/o looking further for a best price n its me who will lose out eventually so i guess i gotta ctrl by hook or by crook!)
3. Control III My diet.. (i don wanna grow fat eating junks!)
4. Drinks lotsa water (its good in every aspect -skin hair health mood)
5. Enjoy every moment .. i wun allow anything to ruin my mood for holiday!
6. Spare a tot for my bf- well gers can walk up to daes for shopping trips but i am sure tis theory doesnt apply for guys :P
7. Be calm if anything shud happen (those who noes me will noe tt i'm actualie quite a cry baby haha
8. Get gifts for my love ones.. (its always nice to be nice)
9. Be careful n alert
10. Don sleep too much! no time to waste at all!!

well hopefully i will enjoy myself dere n come back safely.. nw waiting fro my sis to call me for her pre planned wish list n for my dear to come home recently me n him hooked on some vcd dono wad twin dragon de.. its e highlight of our day but i cant watch nw cos gotta wait for him come home 1st.. finally he is back wrking wif me!! cos when he was at e other place.. it totally sux.. (for me..but for him i dono la) anyway if everything goes as plaaned i'll most probably tender ard end of july.. sch is afterall more imp moreover quite alot of pple may be leaving as well... we shall c~ anyway will blogged again after i come back frm thailand~ will post lotsa pics!!

Summer Love

2005-06-20T08:36:00.000+08:00

It had been an interesting day (sat nite to sun morning tt is) went to work @sentosa frm 4pm to 8 omg its so fucking tired.. my manager ask me to sit at e cover which i did for 4 hrs..v slack nth to do so play ard cos most pple wrk at 8 or later.. so when dey call me to meet dem den go i cant.. wad a pity..i cant slp more cos e previous nite i din slp well~anthony helped me to cut my shirt cos its so fucking hot. phew.. den after tt he go to the toilet wif me also cos he noe i don wan c e $#@*%^ den my eye sight nt tt good ma..dono his location cant avoid.. in fact tt dae i am so grateful to all my frens who keep a look out for me.. haha.. ard 7+saw tt most of my frens arrived ler so happy.. den not long after i return went to wrk at outdoor bar instead of cover ler.. frm den on its ok till 10 realie sux.. e crowd jus keep pouring in till 2++ non stop! all e bar ran out of jugs.. n i was so stresses n tired mentally some more e bill controller is like $@#^&*# n it pissed e hell outta me my thank god.. (Really thx god) time pass quite quickly.. when i go to the toilet i nearly die cos e q is soooooo long.. e main bar was so packed tt i cant walk to the ladies.. grrrrr hw i wish it rained tt dae! v sian wrk outdoor bar keep seeing tt #^$%@* cos our stock needa be replenished some more i facing e front sian to e max.. n when clsing .. wahhh i see him so many times tt i feel like p-u-k-i-n-g heng he was dere for me frm 5+ onwards i start to slack all e way .. haha when i go to e main bar i v happy cos i heard something hahaha *secret* :D:D:D anyway i realie got no idea hw i pull it off but i realie thank god for giving me e endurance :) i was praying thru out e dae man! frm big things.. to small things.. haha.. anyway after i took pay den wait to go home lo.. while waiting oso damn sian.. if only i noe earlier tt $#@$$#@$ got wrk for tis even i sure gif excuse nt to wrk so tt wun keep seeing tt fcuk face.. realie spoil mood sia.. den after tt take e bus go harbour front den go dear hse.. wake up den go home n buy a cake cos its father's day.. den ard 1 am my manager call me to go Happy so she took cab to my area den we went dere v sian lo tho gt a few frens but oso nt those super good de drink n dance for like 2 hrs den i go meet dear cos miss him lo some more one stalker is so fucking irritating so i tot go his hse better.. my dear bought me rum n rasin ice cream hurray! den me n dear c e vcd till 7 he fell asleep on my hand hahahahahaha so i continue e chase n sudden feel like blogging..gotta go to e station later on at 2.. so i decided nt to sleep if nt i cant wake.. hopefully todae can get e compensation cos i'm going to thailand on sat.. sooooooo happy haha i cant wait!! xD

Yeah~! going thailand soon!

2005-06-16T05:15:00.000+08:00

i'm so happy tt my coming paycheck is 700~! long time don haf so much ler always stuck ard 500.. last week has been realie tiring for me both physically n emotionally but tis week is beter.. anyway went to eat dian xin wif my sisters on mondae..was realie glad tt i get a chance to bring my younger sis out as i noe pple of her age rarely haf treats esp her so i hope there will be more.. before my sch starts tt is.. e food is quite nice quite a limited variety.. still its value for money lor.. tues me n dear went to book air tickets but realised our date of departure is full so we haf to opt for another date so sian.. after tt we went to bugis village has been ages since i last went dere. all the things dere i can get at thailand lor.. n ard 4x cheaper! so excited tt nx week i finally going ler.!! cant wait.. my summer love pay will add on to my cash-in-hand waha so happy..work is alrite todae.. but tiring as usual.. tml will haf to go n collect the plance tickets wif dear b4 he wrk.. anyway nw all tt is on my mind is thailand only.. haha... sat gotta wrk at sentosa summer love realie sian lor if only dey don haf e event cos i realie hate e place i hate it i hate it i hate it!!hope it faster cls wahaha..wrking 12 hrs in one shot can realie kill lor.. sian.. den my manager dey all still wanna chiong on sundae.. don feel like going but as usual dono hw to reject dem.. :( actualie me so enthu abt thailand is becos of e shopping.. if not i oso don wan go dere de.. anyway i cant go abroad for one yr after my sch start.. so sian.. sch starting on july 18th.. tho still gt 1 mth lyt but i noe sure past v fast de tis one mth so i v scare as i realie love my life rite nw i don wanna haf any changes.. anyway .. working has made me a better person.. i am more responsible (like i sae its more nt totaly) more self disciplined.. more patient , stronger n i seem to be able to enudre much more hardship as compared to e past n hopefully more mature.. my sis said tt she too felt tt e me nw is better .. i felt comforted.. who saes tt wrking nite life will turn u into an ah lian? in actual fact i felt tt i am less lian liao wahahaha...
i noe going to sch is good for me so i shall jus bear wif it.. anyway wrking tis 5 to 7 mths seems like 2 mths to me so hopefully one yr of sch will seem like 4 mths.. i am excited as its mass com but i cant help feeling intimidated.. no body likes to go to a new begining n start frm e scratch.. i realised tis is actualie a chance given to me tt not everyone will haf.. i am so glad tt after pte o i still gt one more road to prolong my education journey.. hopefully i will do well for tis one.. my only fear is my relationship wif my bf.. will it survive for tis one yr as we r so used to spending so much time together? i realie hope so cos tis 5 mths tho we had our share of bad times but we r still as close as any 2 pple can be n i realie treasure tis r/s alot.. hopefully we can pull thru diff times.. anyway i am looking forward to watching Intitial D wif my sista once its showing .. long time haven go for movies wif her ler.. cant even rem e last one.. well for once its a chinese movie i noe she will like or even watch.. as she is nt a cheena person.. so.. well it seems like tis last mth b4 my sch starts i haf many plans.. sigh.. hopefully my life will be better when sch starts..

resemblance.. its so scary tt its frking me out..

updates

2005-06-06T00:36:00.000+08:00

sian so tired nw.. ok lets start frm tues.. me n dear wanted to make passport cos his expire ler in e end i too tired cos i 10 am den sl[p so 1 am he go dere himself den i meet him 4 at taka after tt he go cut hair so nice nw e hair i c ler wan pinch haha.. den his hairdresser wanna make my hair nicer so i hafta save $500 frm nw to make my hair i need to cut re perm n re color sian... but nvm i trust her nt like tt time i go the SUPERCUTS sian leh walow make spoil my hair i wan big big curl gimme nw half fark standard in e end i every dae hafta style so xin ku.. den nw i saving money ler lo after tt we go eat den walk ard.. bought a top frm future state den go c my fav watch.. so sad left paragon de guess boutique haf nia but i no moeny cos pay haven put so cant buy den i walk further dw to wisma den saw a watch shop gt discount.. so i go c lo.. den my guess watch gt 15 % discount but i still gt no money so bo bian haf to go.. after tt me n dear walk some more den sit at taka tok tok.. we talking abt thailand trip den we realise nw June gt surcharge SIAN SIAN SIAN hafta wait after hols ler so sad nw.. sigh den wed wrk more sian liao lo alot of things happen thurs even worse.. i v sick of wrking ler wanna quit ler v tired leh..thurs nearly quit but sigh still gt go back fri so sick till wan faint sian but before go wrk i managed to buy my guess watch so happy but no more discount but i hack care la cos i like alot in e end i spend 219 buy lo... sat wan tender my manager don wan.. sian even more but i realie cant take it ler lo i think.. finally todae come home ler den go out wif my sis.. go shop shop lo like tt walk ard walow nv buy thing ald spend 70 bucks sian but nvm la tt time she wrk oso trt me tis n tt.. tml go sun tan haha wif her den jus b4 i go home i bought a bag so nice i so happy... hee end here 1st todae wan slp early cos tml muz wake up v early .. abit sian leh v scare will become tan dono la c hw 1st nwadaes i keep thinking abt go thailand will buy wad tis n tt sure buy till i siao

Shopping trip!!!!!

2005-05-30T21:09:00.000+08:00

Went for a shopping trip todae.. haha.. bought some of e things tt i wanted.. but i din managed to get a bag cos i cant find any tt i realie like.. deciding btw e Zara n Mango de..or hopefully a new one will catch my eyes! Spore sale may be officially declared as on.. but sadly Mango aint having sale sian.. realie love Mango like nuts.. bought 3 tops n 3 bottoms frm dere den a lipgloss n lipstick frm Dior.. gonna buy the Anna Sui new perfume when dey change e "Spend $100 n get a free gift" item cos i don like e current one...went to Zara but din saw anything tt caught my eye.. am realie tired nw.. gonna catch Desperate Housewives later on n den tml gonna go make passport wif dear den think maybe he will meet his sis den i'll needa go taka for e audition thingy hopefully it will be good.. logging off nw..

i wonder

2005-05-23T14:56:00.000+08:00

have i realie let go.. i realie wonder

Updates

2005-05-23T11:41:00.000+08:00

Hmm i realised i am blogging regulary at once a week n if u realised its all mon haha.. ok so i shall start frm last tues.. Dears' off dae.. so we went to town actualie plan to c movie de in e end cos we slowly slowly walk n shop in e end no time.. we headed to cine wantd to buy e tickets but don haf e show we wan so we went to eat 1st den saw my sec sch mates .. chatted wif dem den after me n dear eat finish we went to wlak ard den ah dear bought Ichigo n KON!! heeee so cute so we bring dem home lo ah dear noe i sure ki siao n sure i did cos i was trying shoes when he bought it den he damn gei siao haha.. nv buy e shoe cos not i like de plus jus bought one b4 chris flew away.. which is like a week ago. after we c like nth lyt we went to take pic at e lovegeti shop..den went to taka find michelle but she like v bz n we rushing to lido to try the movie tickets.. so we headed to to b2 after leaving her wrk place den gt sale haha so i bought a bag n a pair of v nice leather shoe hee v special cos e tip is pointed de haha... den e bag is like those pattern i like de so buy lo but ald 9+ so cant shop any more den s we go to wisma gio n saw a pants i like so buy lo actualie don wan de cos i jus spend near 200 bucks at zara last week when i go shop wif jia jing .. ald bought e pants n lotsa clothes ler but nvm la ah dear c i like so he buy for me + he noe i broke ler.. den rush to anna sui to buy my refill but oso close sian.. den lido oso don haf our show ler so we sian 1/2 go wheellock drink coffee den go home lo den wed i nv wrk so i ownself go town walk walk to buy my refill tis time i did den i bought a lipstick to replace my finishing shade n a liploss actualie wan buy my mascara oso but i think think ald 100 gt free gift ler wait till dey change e gift den i buy mascara den can give myself some excuse to buy more anna sui things esp e new perfume!! hee so i buy tis 3 den dey gimme badges (lame leh) n a v nice bag wif a v nice anna sui cover bag so total is 2 bag haha after tt i v sian i call andrew den i go lot 1 meet him den we ok n eat till 2 or3 den after tt i go meet ah dear lo den thurs me go taka meet my family n eat cuz mum bdae e dinner cost us 300 bucks but we nv eat happily cos e food sux all my dad fault lah don sae ler but nt nice at all! den after tt i head to meet jia jing den we actualie wan go dbl o de but i nt feeling well so in e end we go slack at back of hse den we went to dbl o c walow so long que ald 12+ so we sian ler we took cab go mr bean eat den spend e rest of time dere till our bf come den dey order food eat after tt we went home lo den fri wrk v unhappy dae dono la sat v sian n sun more sian all wrk wrk wrk sian sian sian den finally home ler but i not tired cannot slp i haven slp after i finish wrk frm ytd lo.. anyway my sis went thailand ler n promise me to get me my stuff hee n me n dear oso planning to go soon within june lo.. think i will end here type till sian ler.. nearly lose all e contents i type cos com hang but heng managed to save dem hee

Updates

2005-05-16T21:20:00.000+08:00

:( Chrislines' gone sigh... went to her hse to move quite a lot of things as she donwan dem anymore.. she's realie sweet.. she painted a pair of champagne glasses with me n dear's name n gave me an Anna Sui green eye gloss.. she realie noe me so well tt she noes i love green n i love anna sui.. everything she did for me.. jus touch me so much.. sigh.. sent her to the airport on Thurs.. her fren drove us dere.. but we met upon a car accident as e taxi was realie careless.. but we r all ok.. farwell was terrible..we cried like no tml... jus go on crying n crying.. chris cried too... den after she n emil enter e gates me n dear realie brk dw.... den we went to bk n eat cuz we had nt eaten anything...den after tt we went hm n its quite a bad dae cuaz me n dear jus keep crying till we sleep.. life goes on... but i feel empty nw tt she is gone all e mails i receive jus keep bringing tears to my eyes...sigh~! on sat i was molested! damn tt fucker.. i was on e way to e toilet while wrking den he who is a customer pulled me over n hug me den grab my breast i was so angry tt after going to the toilet i told my bouncer who went oer n confront him n even slap him but tt bastard refuse to admit so i scream at him n to make matter worse his gf is dere omg... n e gf is still siding him ass hole.. den he keep saying IF he did it he is sorry so i shouted dere is no IF u did it n u noe it n since u gt e guts to do it why u don dare to admit r u a guy anot n he finally admit n apologise but too late nth cud appease my anger nw so i made a police report which dey did arrive shortly den he was arrested while me n my manager head dw to tanglin police station after wrk... took us all e way till 7 am oh god it sure is tiring..everyone is realie nice n understanding n i am so touched... even my bosses comforted me.. n dey understand my feelking so no one gave me any sorta stress... so is like he will be sued n i need nt pay cuz i am e victim n e gov will pay for me :D shall end here n gonna reply to chrisline nw..

I feel so guilty... sigh

GREAT DAY!

2005-05-04T01:10:00.000+08:00

Din sleep last nite.. left hse realie early to meet chris tis morning.. super duper tired like dono wad.. in fact v v v tired nw.. went to liat towers to settle her paper work.. den went to BK for lunch.. went to nokia care n screw dem so nw my fone is finally left dere to be repaired.. ater 2 mths of waiting! i got wnuff frm dem man one more shit i'll jus screw dem again.. aftyer which me n chris went to the lingerie shop opp nokia care..The Argent.. fucking expensive man.. but i simply cant resist it man.. so i bought one of it.. headed to lucky plaza to get her clother altered.. headed to tangs as chris said dere fitting room is superb..no joke man.. simply love their service dere! too bad i'm in a toght budget ctrl so i cant buy any more lingerie but dey realie haf beautiful ones!! me n chris jus love lingerie shopping haha..as i am sooooooo tempted.. i bought another one.. haha omg.. i am gonna be broke if i go on spending like tis man... chris bought me tis butterfly bracelet as a farewell gift frm tangs.. its realie beautiful..n its realie a surprise cos i tot she is buying for her another fren.. but after shopping for a little more while she handed me e box.. i was soo touched.. sigh.. cant bear to c her go man.. after which we headed to wisma n taka.. window shopped ard n chris bough some clothes n gifts .. i wanted to buy shoes but none caught my eye though..we shopped for pretty long den headed to taka for dinner frm tis omelette stall tt sell jap omelette rice.. den we indulge in e cream puffs.. n select cookies (brandy snaps n passion snaps) as mum's gift.. added a dark chocolate frm france into e box as well.. cos i noe she likes tt..shopped ard more.. den went to watson to get e wax n she bought hair dye.. den we went to taka departmental store n chris caught her eye on tis huge greenish mouse plushy.. n she wanted it badly.. she said it wud be great to hug it on e 13 hr flight..den i drag her to the toilet n left her dere while i ran back to e dep store n bought e mousy.. left it at e cashier n rushed back to the toilet for chris.. den i told her tt i wanted to sae bye to the mouse so we went back n she was so upset tt e mouse was "sold" den i told her tt i'll go ask e sales girl or something while rushing back to the cashier for e mouse... as i got back to her..she look pretty upset n was toking to another sales girl to c if dere r other places tt carry e stock.. as its e last one.. den i told chris to look for e customer who bought it n she look at me like i am nuts haha.. den she whines abt it so i say.. hey chris u realie like tt... she said of cos..so i pass her e carrier n say.. hmm i tot so.. for u :D she was so happy n touched n we luff n luff n e slaes girl luff nonstop too...we luff frm e store till we went outta taka n sat dere n we still luff n luff.. hahaha.. gonna miss her so much man.. sigh.. i am so glad tt she like e mouse so much.. headed to cine n she bought some more farewell gifts for other frens of hers.. den we pass by the lovegetti shop so i suggested taking pics.. whiuch we did.. n we had a great fun e process is realie funnie.. after tt headed to her hse to get e stuff she wants to leave behind in spore.. one huge pillow n two fluffy boster! after a chatting till 11+ headed to dear hse.. damn shag nw after a shower gonna flop n be a dead ass..

still feeling wonderful

2005-05-03T03:32:00.000+08:00

seriously.. i dono.. its kind of a dillemma..
tml- going to liat towers to settle chris paper wrk wif her.. so i not planning to slp as i gotta meet her at 11.. n i wun be able to wake up if i sleep!.. anyway i oso gotta go nokia care to see if tt toopid buzzer thing had arrived.. it better had.. or else i'm gonna screw e pple dere as its been 2 mths.. i'm jus going to be a bitch!.. Oh... dear come home ler hehe.. don blog ler.. *gone*

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2005-05-01T05:56:00.000+08:00

i felt depressed... funnie tt i shud be saying tt rite nw when i shud be happier as compared to the future me .. i felt tired.. of my job... i felt tired of my future... i felt unsure... i dono man.. when i caught a glimps of it i'm scare yet when i chose nt to c it i felt stress i lead my whole live in a contradictory world.. i am always contradicting wif myself regardless whether it is simple matter such as deciding where to go or wad to eat to imp matters such as continuing my education n stuff.. if dere is realie one thing abt my character tt i wud change.. i realie wish tt i am nv a fickleminded person.. i wud chose to be some one who noes exactly wad i want.. yet tis wud nv be.. cos i am me... i hate myself.. yet i love myself.. c tis is wad i mean contracidiction..... i wanna luff yet i wanna cry i felt troubled yet i felt contented.. suddenly i tot of my sis.. who loves to whine.. n nv afriad to whine... but me.. i chose nt to whine cos wads e point when after whining ur life goes on as usual.. nth changes... i am always saying "i wish i wish i wish" yet life is nv kind enuff to grant us a wish let alone a few wishes.. i felt tired.. i felt aged.. like i ald lead my whole life.. like i am ald reaching death.. yet i am young.. but nv in heart.. suddenly i tot of a phrase bilbo in LOTR said " like butter spread too thin on a bread" yeah tt is wad i feel rite nw... i feel like e air is too thin...i felt empty when it reach my lungs..there is so many things n issues n emotions tt i felt unsured of.. i feel suffocated... i felt exhausted... like when u r sinking yet there is no one to pull u outta water.. i realie dono hw to put my emotions to wrds.. tired is a realie general n superficial wrd tt i cud nt realie use nw.. perhaps its e circular cycle tt tends to keep repeating.. tears welled up in my heart.. yet it gt stuck.. n i hafta swallow it back dw again.. cos when u grw up u cant cry u cant display ur emotions like u did when u r a kid.. i miss being an ignorant kid .. who gets scolded when u make mistakes.. yet i get to learn .. not like nw when u make mistakes no one gives u a second chance to try again.. i wanna scream out a loud at tis moment yet again i hafta swallow it dw.. i miss being myself.. i miss ME .. i miss being allowed to be me.. i miss everything i wud nt miss when i was younger.. i miss my pri sch daes when all i do is luff luff luff luff... bt wad abt nw.. i felt empty.. like a bottle which is oni 1/4 filled... n i cud nt fnd any liq to enter.. my life is like so colourless .. even e color blind wud noe tt its colourless... i dont noe hw to put down n let go of my past.. though i badly wanna forget but i cant all i do is to reprimand myself... for beign ignorant.. suddenly i tot of all e advise n scldings i gt when i was a kid.. by my parents of cos.. n its like so true.. they noe.. they knew tt i'd walk thru tis path.. n dey tired to stop me but i was too stubbon.. i was too rebellious to even take in or hear wad dey sae.. though i still hate dem at times bt.. i realised tt they were rite.. but the way they sae n taught me was wrg.. so who am i to blame.. me or dem? i dono perhaps both? Regrets.. is often a thing we experience.. yet we cant do anything abt it.. n some regrets wud oways be there.. even carried to our graves..in e few previous post i mentioned tt i love life rite nw .. i still love my life nw .. jus tt i am afraid of my future.. i felt daunted even b4 i know was exactly my path wud be.. i felt so sick of e darkness tt i had experience n i am not ready to walk thru tt path again.. n its something no one can ever prepare me for...i felt like a coward.. haha.. perhaps i realie am one.. but most of it is probably caused by not oni fear.. but exhaustion..i felt restrained.. i dono y i sae tt bt ya.. tt is wad i feel..loss for wrds to express myself i guess i shud end here..

" There's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when u know its ur heart u cant trust
There's a reason why pple don stay where they are
Baby sometimes love jus ain't enough.."

drastika

2005-04-29T02:26:00.000+08:00

Drastika-
its so scary when one fell outta love huh.. don get mistaken the person is nt me.. bt recently many peeps made me realised tis..
i gt an realie good fren.. after her bf dump her she gt so terrible upset tt she did something DRASTIC to her hair.. she used to hair a fine sheet of long rebornded hair which was dyed to a perfect shade of golden brown.. n she used to be as fair as snow.. after tt blardy idiot left her.. she cut tt hair n in 20 mins.. she look like a butch n mind u she used to be a real beau.. so she had ts fucky hair tt din go well for her beautiful princess like face n fringe tt looks like its for retard.. den she started to change her whole image of beauty.. which change e hell outta her.. she start to be so bl;ardy tan.. (hey i gt nth againt pple who r tan in fact many gorgeous ladie r tanned.) but nt for her cos she.. jus liek me.. hates e sun dreaded e rays n heats.. bt nw she goes sun tannig eveyr week... n i cant recognise her anymore... ok as compared to mths her hair became more decent.. bt its like v plain o jane.. realie nt for her cos she used to be some one i realie envy n idolised.. n nw she cange within a matte rof mths to tis stuck in bntw ugly duckling wif e potential to be a princess. wad hurt me e most is definitely nt becos she is nt as gorgeous as e past.. bt is e fact tt she went so dw jus becos tt BLARDY jerk left her for some short hair tanned ger... sigh.. y.. of all reason did u chose to be influence by some one nt worthy of ur love.. u cud easily be e prettiest babe anywhere! .. (btw she looks like fann wong b4 she did all tis) n u cud left all guys longing for u once dey saw u man.. bt nw u becam e realie pathetic n u noe wad realie hurt me? e fact tt u r still trapped in tis stupid painful world in u.. y cant u jus let it go.. i mean he is nth great n he is nt even good looking for god sake.. yeah so wad if he gt a gibb mouth.. its jus emptiness.. u noe y am i pouring tis out.. cos i love u like my own sista.. yet u allow urself to became so pathetic..jus all becos of a JERK... please pick urself up again n stop hurting those ard u..
i swear to myself tt i will nv alow myself to reach a stage of hopelessness.. all becos of love.. no woman deserve to cry.. n e one who makes dem cry don deserve their love..

Little india trip

2005-04-29T00:49:00.000+08:00

on tues noon me chris n dar went to tiong bahru plaza den we had our lunch dere..as we don haf much choice we settle for a noodle shop WHICH SUX
e attitude staff service food everything
ok la e food part i dono cos i went to kfc n buy coslaw n eat as e veg i order look like dey had travelled a long dis b4 reaching my plate.. n chrisline complained tt e dumpling oni has crust while dear's chichken is like a few pieces of miserable skin.. all of us were like @#%#$^^%&#%^* all e way.. den after tt i walk outta shop earlier to smk as i am realie DAMN FRKING PISS OFF.. after tt we waited for chris to smk den we headed to little india.. den i start to haf tis craze haha... chris n me decided to get henna n e thing on e head which i dono is called wad..
so after she bought her dog's shaver.. we stopped by a indian shop n ate curry.. v nice =P n we took so many pics.. jus tt its all wif chris la.. haha den after tt we searched high n low for henna shop.. which after a long time den i manage to spot one..so we gt our hands done though e skill of e woman is nt v good bt i felt happy cos i like henna on my hands haha n shun bian buy e thingy to stick on our head bt as its ald pretty late we decided to leave it till e nx time we go out.. den we pass by a shop tt sell those indian bangles n earings so we went in n both of us bought so many majiam our whole life wun get to c dem again.. oh i forget to mention tis is actualie e 1st time i went little india to shop la haha i spend ard $30+ on bangles n earing .. chris spend ard 20 pluc ba.. den we went to eat desserts cos chris is craving for tt.. after tt me n chris suddenly wanna eat peng he (stingray) so we walked all e way to e dono wad beauty or new world dere to eat.. we order kangkong n stingray as we r all nt v hungry.. dear keep saying he v full haha..quite nice la bt a bit too hot for my liking on e way dere we saw quite a few indian aqua all CMI de hahahahha.. den after tt we walk to take bus home.. b4 we reach e bus stop we saw a shop tt sell a v nice apple lamp which caught chris heart.. bt as left oni e last one (chris wanted a pair u c) so we din buy den she show us e hotel she stayed when she ranaway frm hm when she is younger v posh sia though its oni like 3 star.. den we took e bus n go home ler lo..

i feel wondeful

2005-04-28T05:51:00.000+08:00

i feel wondeful i feel wondeful i feel wondeful i feel wondeful i feel wondeful i feel wondeful i feel wondeful i feel wondeful i feel wondeful i feel wondeful i feel wondeful i feel wondeful i feel wondeful i feel wondeful i feel wondeful i feel wondeful i feel wondeful i feel wondeful i feel wondeful i feel wondeful i feel wondeful !!!!!!!!
i will always ("v") tis song man !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
heeez
i jus simply melt when i hear it! love it like hell todae is reallie GREAT!

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2005-04-26T00:13:00.000+08:00

tis few daes wasnt good.... sigh esp todae got into a huge fight wif my father...my sis n i was on e same side of cos...i nearly moved out when he sais tt tis is hise hse n if i don like it get out.. blardy ass mannnnnn don wish to sae so much all i can sae is i swear tt i wud nt marry an egoistic plus chauvinistis guy in all my lifetimeS.. sick of it man...anyway going to dear hse later den tml going out wif chrisline n him...application for ndis has been done... sigh i don reallie noe if i wanna continue schling mannnn... i'll blog again when i gotta time...

Me n Chrisline =PpP

2005-04-23T20:01:00.000+08:00

me n chrisline =P

New Layout!

2005-04-22T03:32:00.000+08:00

New layout! hee.. anyway.. i needa blog if nt i'll realie forget wads been happening in fact i'm having a hard time recalling man!
I'n SOOOOOO in LURVE with my new hair.. though i haf been spending hundreds n hundreds on hair care n styling bt i am happy spending dem cuz its worth it!
Met up wif vivian on mondae... we ate at e bubble tea restaurant n i bought a couple of stuff (Hair Products) haha.. after tt caught a movie at Lido den headed home.. den at ard 3+ i went dw to find my darling.. tuesdae.. i sleep all e way till 5 den woke up n prep hurriedly to go to chrisline's farewell dinner.. nice food n i enjoyed myself.. den went back to dar's hse n do my stuff while waiting for him to come back.. den we slp quite early as we r meeting chrisline e nx dae.. we went to mandarian to meet her as she is living dere after leaving our stuff n chatting in her rm we went shopping n had our lunch at marche.. it was great fun man.. lotsa funnie stuff n conversation n we kept luffing all e way.. afterwhich as she has to leave for e clinic we brk up den me n dar continue shopping ard n after buying some food n stuff we return to mandarian n dump our stuff dere.. while waiting for emil to arrive spore we headed to e cafe outside cine (forget e name haha) n drank hot coco as i was sneezing away.. oh ya took lotsa pics! will upload asap.. den we decided to head back to mandarian as we felt tt emil will arrive any moment.. after leaving as a bot of champ n some airline's goodie bag n stuff he headed to visit chris as she realie wasnt well .. e rm was damn cold man! anyway e view frm e windows r great .. we woke up v late.. exactly when chris knocked on e door.. den we hurriedly washed up n chatted while emil make some fone calls for serious buisness.. after tt its ard 5 den we parted.. chris n emil went shopping while dear n me grab some bites.. after tt he headed to work n me headed home.. i cant enter as i forget e keys so i went to dear's wrk place to take e keys frm him den after dinner wif himn i went home ya so tt's all tt happened i'll try to update frequently ... esp for e new layie...

new hair!!!

2005-04-11T16:48:00.000+08:00

after sooooooooo long i finally change my hairstyle.. haha i cut my fringe n perm e rest of my hair e perm cant realie be seen frm e pic.. hmm.. anway i prefer big curls den small curls so s like if oni e curls r bigger it wud be 100% perferfect man.. anyway i got it done at supercuts.. e pple dere r realie nice .. even though i went back for a reperm for some areas dey din gimme attitude instead dey keep apologising n siad tt dey were hoping i wud come back cos dey r aware tt some parts aint realie nicely done.. anyway all my collegues keep making fun of my hair.. lol.. alo of funnie things la.. tis thurs going to sharon bdae celebration at ms.. looking forward to it.. its raining nw.. i wonder hw is dear working in e open. hope he wun get drench ya.. gonna chnage some parts of my blog after my com can go to IE i am fucking piss of with e peeps repairing my com man.. its realie been ages.. i wanna screw their ass man! duhhhhhh... went shpping wf christline last thurs n we realie spend alot.. bt i am glad we gt our stuff afterall.. bought a mango skirt at $76 n i realie love it.. e details r sooooo me! even christ insist tt i buy it cos she say it realie suit me.. den bought some styling n hair care products a wrap ard shorts n a project shop shirt for dear cos we been together for 2 mths den i waned to get a purple tp bt i din find one... den i forget wad else i buy ler haha lazy to think la.. anyway.. tt is abt all.. i love my hair!!!heeeee

LOTSA update

2005-04-02T18:23:00.000+08:00

yeah yeah i noe i haven update for v long as my com brk down n i was realie bz working...even rite nw i am nt using my com to blog.. lotsa things have changed.. so much tt i cqnt even rem some of it.. hmm job wise.. i am happy n i like my job v much.. e pple ard me r all v nice ... study wise i think i am going to mdis to reg soon bt probably for july intake? tis i aint sure yet bt i am oni doing tt for e sake of a cert.. sigh in actual fact i love my life rite nw.. perhaps nt rite nw bt a week or two ago.. cos everything seem so perfect tt i wish my life wud jus be lyt forever bt i noe its impossible.. relationship wise i am happy n contented.. i haf everything tt i need in my life rite nw perhaps jus a few dilemma here n dere.. recently i got into another chapter of my life.. new stuff new pple new emotions.. n thinking back i realised tt i am doing alot of things tt i wud ntdo in e past.. i don like to drink bt i dono y i am drinking so much nwadaes.. sigh needa ctrl huh.. anyway lotsa plans for e nx couple of weeks.. dinners to attend to.. going to mandarin to stay over.. suntaning wif christline.. yeah n going to her hse to tok n rot.. anyway me n her painted some glasses using glass paints n we had such an enjoyable time.. den in e end i gave my creation to my dear.. anyway i felt so sad tt christline is flying in a mths n a half time though i oni noe her nt for long bt she is some one who means alot to me n i treasure alot n she has lotsa influence over me.. sigh.. n i will oni get to see her after she fly away say.. .6 mths later when she fly back for a while.. if oni i noe her earlier.. nw in my mind i am realie looking forward to all e plannings for april.. bt n april dere r bound to be times i felt loss cos of some reason.. sigh okay time to go prep for wrk.. i will try to update pics when i gotta time n when my com is back.. tt reminds me! i muz take more pics wif her..

:)

2005-03-03T17:09:00.000+08:00

okiee.. so everything is okayz ler.. dear cor me jus nw den i tell him abt e dream n he assured me many things den i felt so much comforted.. thx dear though i noe u wun get to read tis but i still wanna thx u for making me feel wad i feel rite nw.. i mishhhh u soooooo muchhhh.. heeeee.. listening to Ayumi Hamasaki - Moments now.. n a few others enqueued.. all tis song make me miss dear even more sia.. Esp Utada Hikaru - Automatic.. my heart is so xin ku nw cos i realie miss him so much.. though we do spend time together quite alot but some hw its nv enuff? i dono whether in future we'll haf time like tis ler.. esp if i going to study lo.. some hw.. i realie wish tt things will stay lyt forever.. hais..
dear.. i realie mish u sia.. sigh..
mUaCkIeSsSsSs xD

if everything happens for a reason.. i believe that i exist because of ur existence..
Loving u always & forever..

sian

2005-03-03T15:26:00.000+08:00

hmmm everyone is frantically finding a course to suit dem.. honestly even at tis stage i still gt no idea wad i wan.. e best choice wud probably be going to MDIS.. yeah.. tt is my decision.. so nw i am waiting for RP confirmation.. even if dey wan me perhaps i wud jus go MDIS cos e course duration is 6 to 9 mths oni..
gt a realie bad dream ytd.. abt me n my dear.. terrible sia~ hais so glad to haf waken up.. its a torture sia.. i wonder if it will happen in real life cos.. tt is one thing i haf oways feared tt wud happen ever since dae 1! Everyone reading.. please take note.. if u haf a best fren of e opposite gender.. n u gt a bf/gf.. please prove to dem tt dey r more impt den ur best fren becos if u don dey will become v insecure n upset over many issues.. sigh..........cmon at e end of e dae hu wud u end up wif rite.. dono lah.. perhaps nw i am jus SUPER DUPER unhappy over tt blardy dream.. =( do i sound like i am too much? perhaps.. sigh i don wanna feel lyt too wad.. i wanna be a gracious person hu can afford to share my bf but e fact is.. i am nt tt noble.. i am nt tt great.. i am jus a simple ger.. who wanna be loved wholeheartedly by him.. tt is all.. is tt too much to ask for? i dono if nw i am the one typing or sherlyn frm e dream.. cos e normal me wud jus swallow dw all tis ill feelings.. bt i don wanna hold back.. after holding back so many ohter issue.. tis is my blog if i cant let it out here where else! -fustrated- so pls forgive me for being so harsh.. but i doubt u will ever read so hack lah.....n plus.. its just a dream tt had yet to happen
Anyway perhaps i wud haf e chance to meet up wif my 2003 classmates.. something i am looking forward to cos i realie miss dem so o o o much.. hopefully dey can make it cos i haven seen dem for exactly one yr.. ok tt is all i shall end here.. =]

sian

2005-03-01T10:10:00.000+08:00

i did badly for my o's.. 31 pts.. which cant get me any where.. gonna go RP todae n try out.. after tt gonna meet dear.. hais.. i feel terrible.. really... i noe i wun do well.. bt u noe a part of me cant help hoping for a miracle every nw n den.. while i was on e bcab on e way to collect my results i tell myself.. god.. bring me to where i belong.. so is tis realie wad its meant to be for my life... i dono.. i don wanna start wrk forever so early sia.. perhaps i will go try MDIS.. dono.. nw i am in dis state of confusion.. my parents wan me to retake.. n seriously i don feel like going RP those hu noe me well enuff shud noe tt.. i wan go nyp cos its nearer to my hse.. moreover RP so far n nt so establish yet.. aiya dono la.. hmm a few of my classmates oso kana 30+ i wonder wad dey gonna do.. tis tell u nv go to take pte o.. stay in gov sch bettr.. maybe if i haf stayed i'll get a good result lo.. hais.. sian lah! =(